Not Here And Not Now

How I thought life can be in a wish or with a twist

Not Here And Not Now

 

I used to think I was an angel floating in the sky.

Wearing my heart on my sleeve and trying to be the caretaker of all.

Screw this world, Screw my mind.

It's not worth it, not worth my time.

How can I be a caretaker the mother of all.

I can't even care for myself, that's my biggest downfall.

The hatred, the ugliness, the infatuation of saving everyone.

Stupidity, insanity, no freeness, not even the ablitiy to die.

Oh God, why didn't you just take my life.

I would make a great angel having all my free will to save someones soul.

You didn't take me and now I have to live here wondering why and trying to stop time.

Trying to change all that's been done.

Damn I can't do that not here, not now.

One day it will happen and death will be with me.

Just not here and certainly not now.

Author's Note

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Reviews

[KJVollaro]

Nice use of free form expression. All of your work I've read so far has a real stream of consciousness feel to it. It is also very personal, which I know can be painful and difficult. You don't bother to hide anything, and your emotions really do come through in your writing. Thank you for coming on board here, and for sharing your work with us.