Family By Christopher Ross Livingstone

Family By Christopher Ross Livingstone 

 

Life changed beyond all measure 

And not that long ago

In October 2021

A loss such as yours

Pierced my feeling heart

Because this change I wasn’t ready for

How could I be?

When Mum's nurturing heart 

Surrendered herself to her peace

 

The family Tree 

Stripped bare 

Forever more 

Family life had changed 

Like frost on a winter's day

Shock had frozen us all into protection

To save ourselves to feel another day

 

 

Taken too young 

We all say that 

Don’t we?

It's part of the process

Reflections and writing 

Across those journal pages

Making sense of life now and what it means

It's stripped back 

Too the core

But it doesn't stop how raw it is?

Your life force gave more that you received in return

I'll always remember your force

Because I'm an echo of you

 

This last year alone 

Changed where I was 

Who I am 

And where I will go?

Family life was blown apart

An open wound

I felt torn and alone

From the loss of a maternal light

Becoming homeless wasn't easy

Due to decisions that others had made 

Regardless of where I was in vulnerability

Life had changed along all spheres 

And how could I be the same from these experiences?

 

Memories slip in and out 

Conscious soul 

Nostalgic heart

Moments shared 

Time has gone

Some painful

Others on the opposite

This leaves me craving more

 

Festive calendars

Time for fun and giving

Has come around again

I didn't feel anything this time last year 

Shock rested on my heart

As Christmas comes knocking here and now

I do feel connections with other like-minded souls

Family life is changing once more

As I make family span out from my heart 

To build a home as Mum would want me to do

Because I am an echo of her love