I let you go!

I let you go By Christopher Ross Livingstone

On a Sunday morning

A day for reflecting

Upon a time of meditatiom

I've come see

I've lived a life

Lived experiences from subjugation to liberation

Like a life never kissed to one that is expressed

I've travelled the paths

Paths within of the confinds of the not kowing

To the awakening ackowldgement

My travells have been lessons learned

Journeies ends where loved ones have come to pass

But in solcase found appreication for knowing them in the times we shared

I have lived a life

Under great expextations and norms

A sociaety with hang ups about people with livesd differences

From childhood

My ackknowlwdgement stemmed from there

The undercurrrents and those great sensations awoke in me a relaisation

Yes I'm different

But the lessons soared with pain and obstacles for me to overcome

I never saw myself in the vision of society and it's expections

The fabric was woven around me

From media to symolism on the television

And yet I couldn't relate as I didn't have any visual representaion

Until voyaged inside uncovering my truth to learn that I am gay

I lived a ife

Bullied and persucuated in my younger years

Walking with a limp

Treated different for those limitationa and wasn't celebrated by any other

The echoes of those words had power over me

The subjugation grew as I felt these words were true

I was seen by the eyes of others as different

And inturn they couldn't relate

Albeit understand

I lived a life

One where pride wasn't felt within

I percieved mysef in a negaitive frame of shame

Shame then led to guilt in my being

Comforting in the only way I knew to drown out the volume the motion of these emotions

I consumed and was lost as I ate in my feeling

Anything sugar and nice

Cakes and all that sweet

But this was a slice of life that grew added weight upon a heavy heart

I have live a life

With a heart through those adverse times

Teaching me within the difference between compassion and resilence

I set alight the beacon

Insight from within I began to trust in my intuition

Time showed me the worth in our stories and histories

I have lived a life

A life lived in a lived experiences of guilt to shame

A life of silence in pain

But now from silence grows the seedling of expreossion

My life is lived the long way round

A life ived

In fear of myself and the light within

From body shame to self love

Compassion and resilience has been my key

Unlocking my heavy heart

To unleash and shed away the pain

Towards the love I shine

Today,

I say to the old ways

I let you go!

I surrender unto change 

And therefor I let you go!