Remembering

Remembering

Upon refection 

Remembering

It's been 14 years since you came to pass

Since that day

I have come on a journey

From morning a loss 

To living a new life

I saw him 

As he passed

Trying to save a life

But was lost in that blink of an eye

He died at home 

And in my arms

Those early days were tough

Processing the thought

 I could've done better 

But I remember people saying 

I was there and I did my best

Through the days when my Dad was ill 

Until he lived his last

Remembering

Those days 

Where he made mistakes 

His lived experiences 

His battles

To his addiction

I took from him 

His lessons learned

To how I could live a life 

In my definition on how to be a man

He was stubborn 

And would not be open about

His addiction 

It was harsh

He couldn't see the support people offered 

It impacted his day to day life

Connections and relationships 

It consumed him

Being homeless and days in the dark 

Like a depression 

Life was lived 

In chaos 

But the man 

Despite many faults and flaws

Remembering back

Gave me space 

A space of acceptance

Open 

To be gay 

Reviews

[John the Baptist]

A eulogy in verse here. It is difficult sometimes to come to terms with the death of a difficult parent. In this offering I have the feeling that the speaker, while not denying his father's shortcomings, has been able to balance the ledger.