i am who i am and you dont accept me

im pouring my heart out

im showing my wounds

my pain and anger

all the abuse

 

i do not understand you people

im hated for who i am

you judge me because im gay

why is that so wrong?

why does it matter to you who i love?

 

do you know what its like

to be hated by your family

just because you cant help loveing the same sex

 

people say i chose this

i didnt choose to be gay

i didnt one day wake up

and decide to get made fun of EVERYDAY

 

i try to keep my spirits up

i try to keep going

but it gets so hard

my days are painful

my nights are sleepless

i feel the need to hurt myself

 

im not wanted by my father

im not loved by my brothers

my cousins laugh

my aunts and uncles are ashamed

my grandparents act like im not there

my mom pretends like it doesnt matter

 

i respect shes trying

but i think i should make her life easier

and to not have a shameful child

im sorry i couldnt choose who i wanted to be

 

i didnt choose this!

dont you get it!

i would rather die

then go through hell everyday

and cry every night

 

i lost many friends

i lost myself

im judged

im ripped apart everyday

and honestly

i dont know how much longer

i can hold on

 

i think..

im ready to let go..

Reviews

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First this very well written and it can even be a slam piece performed on stage. I think it would be a great performance. Now that everyone has turned away from you, in a way you are free to be you, in time you will meet those who will accept you for you and yes the pain will be there from how the family reacts to you. I have seen though when people move on and make their on life and find happiness that others come around to accept them as well because no matter what they say they do love you and they want you to be happy. When that comes out of you they will be attracted to it and the ones who are able to change will change and accept you. The rest well you have no control over them. Don't allow others personal hangups prevent you from living your life how you wish to live it!