Crazy Or Infatuation

confused about how we feel,how they

i have been told i am crazy

i have been treated like i am 

Planned the day,the day we were going to finally meet

i brushed my teeth for the day

She thinks i am different,I used a different toothbrush

i am always nervous, pull it together says the voice

The soft whisper that has always guided me since way i can only remember

They advised me not to,She’s bad news, breaks innocent hearts

who are they,have they ever felt this? Still the whisper protests

Disappointment is indeed my worst nightmare,i can not sleep

Don’t switch of the light,i might chase her away when she comes,

She’s always welcome,anytime

I think i like her,but how, we only talk,all i see are pictures

What is this? infatuation.