In Again

A broken heart sings sad songs for a love in pain.

The clock moving slowly,

Appointed hours approach through muddy time,

My frantic morning routine, painted red.

Tumbling toward the car

Just to see her.

 

She wears a mask of breathing tubes,

Poked with intravenous junkie needles

And her bed rings loud bells if she tries to

Escape

To head for the bathroom,

Urgent.

 

Small talk designed to avoid THE talk,

I diligently fish around for wash cloths and

Ginger ale and prayers,

Just to appear busy and engaged

While she naps in a bed, not hers…

The authorities yell that hours are past

And I wake her to hug her,

Walk to the car shedding

One tear/per minute.

 

dan © 2015

 

Music: “You’re My Sickness,” by Diva Destruction

Author's Note

Reviews

[modtoddinc]

My empathy goes out to you and your wife. I hope at this time there has been much improvement for the both of you. The deeply felt feelings that come through this piece show you were dipping your pen into the ink well of your own heart; it is written so well. The sorrow and hope are palpable, and the flow is constant and true love. There too is the very real sense of helplessness that is universal to us all when we can't make it better, and don't know what to say. We do what is comfortable. Thank you for sharing this deeply personal poem.

Peace to you and your wife, Todd

[dan]

My wife is doing WAY better. She's just healing up a broken shoulder then she'll feel good enough to feel as s****y as she used to! 8^) This aging thing is a tough pill to swallow, and WE swallow plenty of pills anyway. Thanks for the read/review. take care...dan

[Samuel Dickens]

Such an ordeal is a real test of spirit, and I'm sorry the two of you are subjected to it. Usually, it has been me in the hospital bed while my wife frets and runs herself ragged. Your going through it again reminds me of one awful year in which I simply could not stay out of the hospital. Hopefully, the dark clouds have passed for you and your wife.

[dan]

Yes, she's a lot better, thank you. She has her splint off by is still healing from her broken shoulder. The write was about one of the seemingly endless this year she had to be admitted inpatient...it was very frustrating for her to continue treatment, hard for me to sit in an empty house. So glad it seems over. Thank you again for asking. take care...dan

[J3ssInJupit3r]

This poem is so sadly beautiful. I loved the line "approach through muddy time" like time is taking forever. I would like to know the back story and the reason for this poem. It was beautifully written and made me think about the many possibilities of what the story behind it could be. Wonderful work, thank you so much for sharing.

[dan]

The back story is that my wife has been hospitalized about 5 or 6 times this year for 3 different situations. I believe it was the fifth time that prompted me to write about my fears and frustration. Thank you so much for stopping by and the read/review. take care...dan

[Coyote Poetry]

I enjoyed the song. I added to my favorites. The poem took reader to sad and lonely place. The thoughts were strong and you led the reader to the ending of tears. A sad and powerful poem.
Coyote

[dan]

My wife has been in and out of inpatient hospital stays this year. This was about ONE MORE TIME. Thank you for your kind words, very much appreciated. take care...dan

[Coyote Poetry]

I felt the heartache and you are welcome.

[cimmy wuv xxxooo]

I think this is about your wife. This was truly deep and meaningful, straight from your heart. Its a heartbreaking piece.
I feel all your emotion in this piece. I enjoyed reading this.
Fantastic write.
All the best cimmy xxx

[dan]

cimmy, thank you for your generous review. Yes it's about my wife, but she is home now and things are getting back to normal. I appreciate your visit and your read/review. take care...dan

[cimmy wuv xxxooo]

Im so glad to here things are getting better and that she is home that is truly great. Your most welcome :)

[TheOne&Only]

This is a very deep, emotional piece! The imagery was very distinct, I enjoyed this yet sad but beautiful piece.

[Crystal Overmeyer-Birmi..]

I hesitant to say i love this piece, not because its isn't beautiful or potent, in truth it is both, however its not to be taken with a smile or empty compliment. This is so flawless in its follow though and heart breaking in its delivery that its hard to feel anything but the emotions portrayed in its inked lines. For myself when i can feel the pain or joy wrapped in words that's when it know that its a truly great poem. Great Job!

[Jane Taylor Hardy]

This is a vivid write....very intense....full of emotion.

[dan]

Thanks so much for your read/review. take care...dan

[RAOrourke]

Heartbreaking read. The emotions are raw and I felt right there in the pain reading your poem.

[dan]

Thank you, RA. I'm hoping my wife will come home from the hospital next week and in much better health. take care...dan

[Indra Neil]

this is a poignant and heartfelt write! so sorry to hear the news.

[dan]

Thank you for the kind words, sir. Thanks for sampling some of my work, this one very much emotional. take care...dan

[Indra Neil]

u r most welcome! I wish her a speedy recovery!