The Mess I've Made

When mistakes hurt others there's no turning back...if ever.

The Mess I’ve Made

 

We’ve drifted apart, the blame goes on me;

A whispered denial, a whiplash reaction.

Saying I’m sorry will never suffice,

My vain contradictions say so very much more.

My efforts to remedy, on which you deny

I look to your blue eyes, you’re looking askance.

So now I’m dismissing this blind promenade,

This broken down dance,

This mess that I’ve made.

If you’ve ever loved me please give me a chance

To explain my self-hatred

In grey humbled tones.

Toss dirt on my grave, please cover my bones…

I’ve gone down the wrong path

And my time is at hand.

If I can’t be forgiven I may as well burn,

Give dying its turn,

The ending I’ve earned.

 

dan © 2015

Author's Note

Reviews

[Kelly Scheppers]

Forgiving ourselves is the hardest lesson...learning from it, is another.

Your last three lines are most staggering, quite chilling. You must allow yourself time and patience to get through what you have done...it has to start with you!

Take care, Dan. I'm pulling for you!

[dan]

Kelly, I'm just having a real hard time lately, my bipolar is raging and zooming. Thank you for your concern, I'll be all right eventually. Thank you. take care...dan

[jacob erin-cilberto]

sometimes it is we that we cannot forgive...and when that happens, we destroy relationships...we pull away .....something that has died within us needs to be brought back to life...forgiveness of self is a start...and then others will forgive us too.

[dan]

Thank you, Jacob, but this time I really f**ked up. I suppose that time will heal but it's going to take a good while. I appreciate your review as always. take care...dan

[Olivia]

I love the lines, "Saying I’m sorry will never suffice,

My vain contradictions say so very much more."
Very eloquent poem

[dan]

Olivia, Thank you so much for your kind words. I PROMISE to get to your page and return the favor as soon as I'm feeling better. Why don't you RR me? That would help me to know you've posted a new write. Thanks again. take care...dan

[dan]

I'm not suicidal...just sick a lot.

[nazia]

Its okay to make mistakes and mess up only if you are ready to learn from them..
I enjoyed the mess you created with words here... great job

[dan]

nazia, Thank you so much for your kindly worded review. I have bookmarked your page and will return the favor, probably tomorrow. It's nice to "meet" you! take care...dan