An Accidental Suicide

Written sometime in 2007

I'm trapped inside these walls that don't exist
staring at the tissue in my fist
I cannot go outside because the sun would burn my eyes
and then I couldn't cry
What a shame
I do this to myself, time and time again

I'm tearing myself apart inside
More than you could, if you tried
This I can no longer hide
I'm killing myself inside

I solve my problems in the worst ways
If I told you, you would go away
Stay away, I would say
I've got this under control
There are some things you can't know
What a shame
I do this to myself time and time again

I'm tearing myself apart inside
More than you could, if you tried
This I can no longer hide
I'm killing myself inside

I welcome the pain with open arms
Trying hard to push away the warmth
I wish I could say how it feels
My heart might stop from all the stills
I want to make it all unreal
What a shame
I do this to myself, time and time again

I'm tearing myself apart inside
More than you could, if you tried
This I can no longer hide
I'm killing myself inside

I'm killing myself inside
An accidental suicide