I was completely done. I didn't know what to think anymore. My parents always fighting...so I took the pills. The uppers kept me going. I started getting into the things my mother probably wouldn't like. But, I didn't care. I guess you could say I went into a downwards spiral, one, I couldn't get out of. I had a boyfriend, oh, he was really something. The only thing wrong with him is that he tried getting me to do acid. I honestly wasn't that comfortable doing that. Then, he threatened to hurt me if I didn't...so...I did. Everything looked crazy, and the lights changed from shades of green to reds. I actually gotta say, I loved it. I loved the rush. For a moment, I forgot all about my parents...
Later, I forced myself to walk home when the acid was wearing off. I opened the door and my parents both screamed at me. "Lilly! Where were you?!" they said and I just shrugged and started walking away. Then my mom grabbed me. It hurt. So that's when I turned and screamed "Maybe I should just die and everything will turn out great for you guys! I'm just a burden! And, when I'm gone, you will regret treating me like this someday!" I turned, and stomped up the stairs to my room and i locked my door. I ran over to my free base kit. I took hold of the needle, and jammed it into my vein. I didn't even care anymore. My body randomly relaxed, and my head whirled. I suddenly feel some kind of regret. I knew what was going to happen to me. I felt silent tears fall from my eyes as my skin grew cold and clammy. I lay down and closed my eyes....
I never opened them.