Krypton Paradox

A Poem by Cahjli Symes

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I want to burrow
in with you.

Feeling so cold,
as my flesh scales off
my bones.

The scent from your
hair still lingers in
my clothes

I don't want to go home,
Since there's a presence
that's not there.

When I close my eyes
I always ask if you're
aware?

Of all the bullets in
the air, the bitter
feeling of despair.

As I die within your arms,
Somehow I feel like you're alarmed.

And you won't trust
who I am,
as I'm begging
to be buried
in your warm but cold
embrace.

Now I'm standing
in a race,
meant to deface
just who I am.

Feeling so f*****g
worthless, I question
if you care at all?

The smile on your face,
as I covertly hide
my fear.

My fear of my discomfort,
in which I know I'll
die alone.

Born in a empty void,
used like a toy.
Please understand.

Don't cut inside my chest
to see my torn up
pulseless heart.

I want to go back
to the days when I would fall
and you were here.

Even though you're far away,
I never thought things
would have changed.

Paranoia in my head,
from all the times
you wished me dead.

I walk through tides
still breathing,
hoping that I disappear.

Submerged from discomfort,
The tides are changing from above.

Convulsion from the salt
that now burns within my lungs.

My skull cracks
on the rocks,
from a wave
of new born thoughts.

Skin now scraping
Mutilating,
My oxygen is on decline.

Bleeding
broken
left to die,
as the shrimps
eat out my eyes.

When you see
my rotting corpse,
please just act like
I'm alive.