Janet 1987 (Trunks on Chi-Chi)

A Poem by Cahjli Symes

Roofies by Dream Koala.

I want to drown inside your arms,
It's the only place in which I won't feel alarmed.

I'm tired of the distances
Keeping us apart,
I'm tired of your boyfriends ripping out your heart.

I can feel your heartbeat,
Deep down inside I want cry
Knowing every night
You wish to commit suicide.

I don't know what I'm feeling
As I stare off to this ceiling
And I know that I'm still young
And my words are unappealing.

But you'll still be coded in my mind
As if I'm just sleepwalking.

I know we're both awake
That's one reason we keep talking.

I'm not trying to enable
Or to break you down for the worst,
It just really hurts that you wish you're in a hearse.

It really f*****g hurts that I'm a minor yet your major.
But age is just a number and I'm not a f*****g player.

Maybe I'm just confused
And I don't know what to do
But do know that you'll always be apart

Of this rotting organ
That others call a heart.

I know deep down
your soul cries,
Wishing for a better life
And I want to make it better but I'm so broke
I can't even afford to letter.

Maybe it's just random thoughts
While I sit in the dark.
So scared of the future
That we might not be apart of.

I want you to be happy
And to know of your self-worth.
Never make a lover make you feel like f*****g dirt.