Madness

What happens when the unbeatable are beaten? What happens when the expectations are too high? What happens when others begin to doubt your intelligence? What is one to do if that person is you?

Why won’t they go?

Why won’t they leave?

The pain that follows

Destroys the inside of me

 

I used to be wise,

I used to be strong

Now the madness never ends

Where do I belong?

 

I try to run

I try to hide

never finding a solitary place

in which to confide.

 

If only there was a way;

A way in which I could escape

To a place in which I was free to unlock the gifts of nature

A greater place than this

 

But does such a place exist

This is a question that has no answer

For true peace does not make itself

Easy to reveal

 

 Perhaps it does not exist

Maybe I’m fighting a hopeless battle against my inner self

 I was born to be thrown into insanity.

Is this my fate, to believe a belief so strongly

That it rips apart the very mind from which it came?

 

I can only imagine the things

 I could have accomplished

If only I had held on a little longer

A fading ember left upon the hearth of time

 

But what never was can never be

For I surely would not have lived an eternity

But it truly pains me so

To think that I will never grow old

That my message will remain unclear

 

 

I will die along with the masses

Just a scratch on the stone

A meaningless number left in an ever-growing list of failures

And if this is what I will become

Then this is a life I do not wish to live.