Foundlings

It is not necessarily a question of when but how. How exactly did we let this happen, how did we promise the future generations nothing, how did we take from them the only thing that will sustain them. We talk of a greener future but still we fight for oil, when we have cleaner technological means to fuel our over developed nations. When others in the world starve because we demand there natural resources land and people, we do not explain to our children, that we are slave masters. When this is ultimately the truth of any over developed people. We lack in mental clarity due to complication, convenience, our obsessive nature when it comes to perceivable stereotypical mundane material gain. We are no longer feeling as if we are a part of something so we strive to fit in to something greater furthering ourselves from the only things that truly matter. Those things that truly matter are truth, understanding, compassion, and spiritual growth. One must acknowledge the urgency of viewing things as they come and seeing what it is exactly. I understand that in time one may see great abundance in something that was only an inkling of what it is a now, and that is exactly it. Now in new light, in experience had, 

one may appreciate

 what it is they are willing to fully commit to, but only after shedding that which is superficially linked to ones happiness and well being... I am a person that loves to starve in ways that most people I have known indulge, and indulge in ways that most people abstain. I am very often found in that which has been discarded. I have placed my self in a completely available position, which has left me with very little control in focusing on what it is I do feel I am good for. I have no stipulations generally, I have no opinion that would in anyway result in someone having to change, or think about the way they do things, its not that I intend upon impressing my ideal on other people but I need to in fact encompass exactly what it is I feel is best for me, within that it may be found that I am less available, which I have never really been, aside from my mobility. I am in mobility not that accessible, I am stranded and that is why its easy to find me, I wish not to be anymore. Not that my unmobilized situation has ever necessarily hindered what it is ¨ I am trying to do¨ : it is that in feeling stranded and dependent for so long i have become completely lost, with a head full of ideas, that I pawn off on other people as remedies to a situation that I  am 

currently experiencing 

or saw a way out of but did not do what it is I saw as a solution. I am impressing upon myself  the urgency, to ¨figure things out”, or at least to sort what it is I do have, or know is to come. All that I do have has become increasingly more important to me, aside from physical belongings,  that which I know is to come is a life style that is less dependent upon whatever it is I have already noticed that I am dependent upon. I know of a life slightly simpler that I once lived, at least to some extent, and I am intentionally attempting to place my self within those terms, with a greater understanding of things, from where I am now. I have always felt like I was waiting for someone, something, a situation to remedy my current situation, though in truth I had no idea I was embarking on this great journey with each around me as an advocate if I so chose. The people that I have found myself closest to have come from the most unexpected places, of course, when you are not looking you get exactly what you forgot you where looking for, or what is needed. When things reveal themselves as true it has taken all for me to learn you must except. I know that in my heart, the philosophical ideal form of a heart, that the middle and the end, will  be just like that of the beginning, washed from my mind. The beginning was very much so the most definitive moment in my life, it has quantified a number of things through out my current existence, that I am told is ether occurring or is an illusion in its totality. I know that the end is insignificant, like the birth I could never recall. Life has been but a flash in time, though through this flash I have, deciphered a spectrum of things, about humanity and that which is all or nothing within thy self. The self manifestation, of this being, and the physical body of that which I was blessed with. So why am I here, why are you here, and how exactly can we make the best of our time together. Time, this time thing, I can never let go of, that which has been instilled since the very beginning from the time I thought a second was an hour and now the flashing years like seconds in a minute, when my life is truly at stake here for I have never been taught how to slow down, but only to get done, to finish to make it, and make up, to follow, and lead so the stipulations, that were impressed upon can be mounted within this fake realm of things, that matter, and that place you upon a plinth in the “real”  world. I attempt everyday to recollect the feeling of that which has been most wholesome, and I end up in the current moment reminiscing about how it felt 

to be oblivious. 

How it felt for an hour to pass, when I knew not the worth. Before I felt I was wasting away, or that I was really going to make it somewhere, to get something. There is no finish line. There is no beginning of this, I am merely emanating out of the present. I have fought to find that I am found, and that is why I choose to seek not. The action of non action has proven to be one of the most enlightening occurrences. Though many not excluding myself have, found this to be somewhat deficient of “meaning”, like a vegetable, lacking the meat and potato. It is difficult in todays shenanigans of happenings and priorities to prioritize. The truth to me is that there is no line differentiating that of action and non action. That if time spent in non action is as virtuous as that of  one acting out then it is indeed the 

equivalence of action 

that is also virtuous. In example if one is devout and deviates from virtue never, then one is devout and virtuous, whether he feeds the hungry day in day out or sits upon a mountain in the stillness, emanating that which is love into the air : These are one in the same, and are to be looked at in correspondence with one another. As long as the thoughts, word and deed are that of a pure nature, that of the divine, the non harming, the wholesome, the stillness that manifests when action is purposely possessed by the one within the body . Action and non action alike. I speak of non action as if it is an action, and that it is very much, but if looked at by the simpleton, the ones breed more often then not in this society, the one would guess the person was doing not a dam thing. I am on that note, not speaking of what the normal person does before bed at night, grabbing a pint of ice cream and watching Oprah on on-demand is not action, it is useless, like that of the man on lunch break power smoking for twenty minutes to get his fix, this is not action, these and a million other examples like them are the pitfalls of humanity. The one practicing non action would enjoy the breath and let it energize his body, make the air around him very powerful, make something of himself in a moment or two in comparison to that of the lack of action in mind, the person will never make anything of himself, in any amount of time, if not aware of the stillness within, or the motion of life within the manifestation of the stillness, of mind. I am not here to try and prove anything, or make any certain group feel incapable of anything, just speak of what I have found within the time I have already been given. I am in no way attempting to dehumanize anyone though that may benefit man kind a bit more then making them feel any mightier then they have. To break it down and make it very apparent that we are instinctual beings of a force that we have denied divinity. Taking something of someone, or of a force, is not in anyway apparent at first in most cases due to a number of things including the common human ignorance, that surprisingly we really share with no other species on the planet. All other species function along what I believe to be somewhat of a common law, a force within that drives, and makes distinguishing between right and wrong merely impossible but righteously so, and completely unnecessary. 

The differentiation 

is for that being that questions thy self, human do this, no other, “they” exist for self preservation alone, of thy self, thy species and thy soul. They do “right”. We do wrong because we have lost touch with what has kept our ancestors sane for centuries before any of this. We have lost touch with need, desperation, and the wholesome and replaced it with profit, convenience, and cannibalism. It is in an undefined parameter that I place myself within verbs and nouns, some what contradictory of one another, never staying in the oneness that I truly find, this is how at odds I start to define, this being that I am. I scope out less often then I should, I read instead of breathe in my surroundings. I analyze and depreciate the value by attempting to capture the moments that I spend, within all of this, I lack experience in my attempt to catalog the changing sky's. In an attempt to see things more clearly I barley touch the surface of things that anyone with any sense of commonality between occurring events could map out, lay down and conquer. I am lost in word, in definitions, instead of that which is unquantifiable, that which is undefinable of a vocal roar I can only hear when I truly take the time to listen to what is found within. I am human that is one thing I learned very early on, another is that I practice very little and that my favorite thing to do in life is abstain, while partaking just a little bit under the radar. Under the simple glow, where people try their hardest to define themselves. I remain lustrous though all has been dulled, by years of purposefully pressed tarnish. I am not a collection of meaning, I am merely present. Every now and then, every once in a while, every time you let me be something other then nothing. I seek not within this, when maybe if I had a goal all would know of my love for them. What am I to do beyond this, then to listen, to the ramblings,the dramas, the externalized repetitions, of an interiorly moralized anecdote. I think more often then not one seeks that which is most comfortable , regardless of its quality : its worth. In most cases one carries out ones existence within a standard period of time never truly resolving anything or discovering origin, but instead builds upon in a completely random 

undistinguished 

anomaly. The complexity that drives most, is beyond glorified by the most powerful in the world due to their absolute need to remain in control. Human nature, in its origin I believe was very wholesome and selfless. This has become untrue, we define one another on so many grounds, and in general try to diagram and calculate the abnormalities that the ones that are not ourselves possess. We have become increasingly dependent : addicted  to  mechanistic materialism that forces us to be slaves. Our masters are no longer loved or respected but feared. We no longer feel blessed by the breath of our mother. The womb that warmed and the breast that fed. We as a people are so far from this... we have faded away and become individuals that can not exist without a higher power to govern us away from our insignificance. I sit here and type this knowing that I have given up on my self far too many times, but I still reside and realize that what I have within is by far more then any one could provide me with or pay me for. I am not only capable but I know for certain that if you shrugged of the chains just once you would experience a freedom that would not quantify but extenuate upon that a hundred fold. There is no reason to number a god dam thing, there is no reason to find a purpose beyond that of being a good human being. If the only way you can be any good to the human kind is abandon everyone and live in the woods then for gods sake do it. Yes yes that is right for gods sake. God as in the one that manifests this all, a being of like image, perhaps your self. Just perhaps if you became yourself, and found what it is that you should do to benefit human kind there would be peace. To become ones self, one must first take into account every thing that has been done to them and everything that one has done to another and 

forgive.

 Let go, choose the appropriate action to ramify what has been done within the realm of non action and be at peace. Build an idealogical image not as in a portrait but as in what would the one do, what in which case would occur, if the ones action was the deciding factor. Build this in mind, the personification of virtue. The ultimate self, become, right now exactly what you feel you should be. Forget your habits, that inhibit you from spiritual and physical gain, they no longer have a place, here, beyond this sentence. I am admittedly certain in the way of life that I have chosen for my self. I have not one doubt currently but that may change. I again am in no way condemning anyone, I beg you to understand that without a second to waste, I love you. You could very well be the reason why I am writing this, there is no true reasoning behind things. I believe anyway, everything happens exactly as it does, and it could not have been done any different. The ones in those instances that just waved through your mind, the decisions that you have made that you wish you had not, and the things  that played a role in why you made those choices, are not different, they are not happening in any different sequence ever, that does not mean you can not move passed them or let them be a driving factor in why you are exactly who you are today. It is resolving the interior conflicts with ones self that allows one to become that which is most beneficial. Beneficial as in, yes to human kind, yes to yourself, no not to your bank account, but yes again to your 

peace of mind. 

To your dieing breath being that which it has every right to be one of respite, of relief. Oh yes glorify that dieing breath and know again that it is to be washed away as if nothing ever did happen and not just for anything but you are lucky to finally find origin. We will return and before that we are blessed with this significantly adherent consciousness. Consciousness is beyond us. The end of the universe is beyond us, the cell is beyond us. We very rarely think of the simplest explanation before the greatest in verse. The cell in the pit of your stomach, is matter filled with space, nothing, then matter, again space, and then again matter. And so on. I very rarely suspect that there is an end to that repetition. However consciousness, we are primarily unaware of whats going on in our bodies, whats going on in our living room let alone the world. We are fearful in most cases to discover, or to take responsibility for that which has become. What has become in the most recent centuries is a people of skewed views pressed by others, that need the lament mind of the mass population to benefit superficially. We have unknowingly allowed this to happen through generations of need and then intern dependence upon the unjust nature of those providing what it is we are told we need. The people of today are experiencing far less then those bore before the industrial age. We have fallen to a complete desperation of mass proportions. We can no longer function without the convenience of an ultimately over complicated system. We and when I say we I am generally speaking about the people who in some cases unknowingly benefit off of the most impoverished people of the world, we are the people of over developed nations. We are now expressing concern of our lacking capability to deal with our own population load. We can no longer feed, cloth, and house everyone. We can no longer keep our paper and electronic finances in order enough to keep out corruption. We are allowing few men to control every single one of us. We are feeding our children that which will destroy our own grand children. The future generations of us will grow increasingly dependent from birth, because we are no longer informing of another way, of anything outside of the 

standard consumerist 

appeal of a way of life. No one will stand up with power and take responsibility for this. There is no one that can change this, unless we start now and feed only that of virtue in our children. Our children, my children, the children of the same origin from which we came from, deserve something, deserve retribution for what we have done to them. Our Earth needs us, or does it? This earth does not need us in anyway to support life, beautiful consciouses life. We need this place to reside and intern it is our only duty to control ourselves and take take take as little as we can. I go from talking about emanating out of the present to talking about the future of our generations of people and the lack of safety that we have given them. I know that I did not do this and either did you directly, but since there is not one powerful group of people taking responsibility, I beg you, make a few choices and relieve yourself and you children's children of the addiction to the need to feed off of the most dispirit people. Take a few hours and research your favorite consumer goods, everything from the brand of socks you buy to the soap you use. The food you put on the table or the water you drink. You have no idea where these products come from, and searching will only get you so far. All of these things

available specifically 

in the united states are probably from a handful of corporations that are corrupt in nature and paying people not unlike the nature of yourself only enough to live, when if they had stayed in there "less modernized way of life, would be able to feed their family's a cornucopia of nutritious foods in opposition of their now standardized availability of foods and cloths, education everything far less then what we are buying from them. We are directly and indirectly taking these peoples well being away from them, we are taking their ancestry, their culture not to mention their land and only natural resources.

 

In that light that was very dimly shed, this takes me out of control this is not about me I know enough to make decisions the way that I am currently. This takes a little effort on your part to care, to feel anything, for people just like you, children just like your children. For your children right now whose cancer rates are fifty percent higher then yours. We have raped this coming generation of any hope, by being exactly what we were told we have to be. We are being called to an action that we are incapable of taking on, we need to feed our spiritual beings, we need to sync our bodies and minds as a people and become less dependent on the natural resources that we have begun to exhaust. 

 

 

 

We need to become something other

 then what we are. 

 

 

 

 

We need to discover origin, and peace within that. We need to quit being insatiable, and become satisfied with just a little bit ¨less¨. What we have, buy and sell, is becoming increasingly less worth it. We are always searching for something a little bit better, more convenient, something that requires less attachment, less commitment. What if we missed it, if we were never introduced to it, if we never get the chance to provide it for our children, if we were meant to provide. We have sunken through the simplicity, into an entirely different realm where we no longer hunger for silence, but noise. We over complicate the simplest tasks, in an attempt to improve efficiency of something that was fine the way it was. 

 

 

 

 

 

 

We are now born inherently blind. 

 

 

 

We can change something if we change our own minds about something, about everything, we can raise a people of hope after this hopeless time, but not with out the truth. Believe something, anything, but first please find the truth, find a truth and do not dedicate your life time to the fall of the human race by mistake at least do it intentionally. 

:)

 

Resurgent amen