To Find Love AgainA Story by A.C. JonesScott has been in an accident. What he doesn't know is that this accident will not only change his life, but give it a new beginning. Soft
hands. His first thought was that
whoever was touching the side of his cheek had soft hands. Something about a person’s touch spoke
volumes about who that person was. Rough
hands meant that they worked hard or fought hard. Shaky hands meant that they were nervous or
stressed. Thin hands meant fragility.
Soft hands meant that they didn’t fight or work, but that they comforted or
were used to comfort. Along with their
softness, these hands gave a sense of something else"strength. The
second thing that he noticed was that he couldn’t move. He couldn’t move. It was dark.
He didn’t know where he was or why he felt a sudden urge of panic. Scott
gasped for breath; opening his eyes and grabbing for something to hold on to
for stability. His hand shot forward and
grabbed the wheel of a car"his car"and employed a vice-like grip around it’s
slim, circular bar. His head swiveled
around trying to get some sense of familiarity for his location. Scott sucked in air. Am I
dead? I’m not dead. I’m breathing. Breathe more, Scott. “Hey! Hey! Calm down!” The hands.
Scott had momentarily forgotten about them. They had moved from his face to his shoulders
in an attempt to keep him still. “I’ve got you.
You’re okay.” Scott
turned to his left and focused his eyes on a woman kneeling in a squat beside
the driver’s door. Concern seemed to
overwhelm her face in the most peaceful way as her eyes searched his for any
recognition of what was happening. “Where-where
am I?” Scott tried to get his mouth to
work. It was dry. He wasn’t sure if it was because he had been
knocked out for a while or because he was dehydrated or injured. “What happened?” “You
were in an accident,” She said. Once her
words registered, Scott took another look at his environment. The car"his car was a mess. He could just see over the dashboard, but the
tree that the front end was wrapped around looked like Moses parting the
sea. The passenger’s side door was
ripped off completely. Glass was
everywhere. The girl cleared her throat.
“I was driving down the road, and I came around the corner just as you crashed
into the tree.” Scott
slowly started to fidget. The seat belt
was still on. He reached down to free
himself. She saw what he was trying to
do and reached for the seat belt release.
“Thanks,”
Scott mumbled. He swung his feet out of
the car and pushed himself up into a standing position. He didn’t feel injured. No broken bones. No intense pain. “Be
careful, Scott. You’re bleeding.” The woman reached up and let a finger hover
by his head before stepping back. “Hold
on, I have something that will clean that up.” Her
shoulder-length blonde hair bounced as she disappeared in the shine of another
car’s headlights. Scott leaned against
the wreck of metal and chrome that used to be his car. Let’s
piece this together. Scott, you were in
a wreck. You crashed into a tree. You
are ‘rescued’ by a strange girl. Wait. She had said his name. Scott felt his jeans for the wallet he
usually shoved in his pocket. It was
still there. “Here. Let me see your head.” The girl returned with a small rag and a
bottled water accompanied with a small first aid kit. He leaned down and let her take the wet rag
and gingerly clean his wound. Small
stabs of pain caused him to wince. “I’m
sorry. Sorry. I know I hurts.” Scott
shook his head. “I can handle it.” She
opened the first aid kit and pulled out a small packet of cream and a
wipe. When she was done tending to the
injury, she placed a large Band-Aid over it.
“So,
everyone can know that you survived,” she smiled. Scott stood up straight. “You
know my name.” The smile turned into a bashful one. She nodded.
“You
don’t remember me though?” Scott
stared at her. They looked about the
same age. Of course, after college years
start to blur; and college had been a while ago. Nothing was coming to him. She held out her hand and turned her arm so
that he could see the inside of her wrist. Peace.
Love. Joy. The words were small,
but the tattoo immediately caused Scott to remember before college. “Noel?” Pleased that he hadn’t forgotten her, she
grabbed the first aid kit, rag, and water.
“I’ll
pretend not to be hurt that you didn’t recognize me right away, or just
attribute it to that knock on your head.” “Or
that I haven’t seen you since"since high school.” She
noted his hesitation and shifted her stance.
Scott followed her gaze to his car. “You
need a ride somewhere?” “I
guess I do,” he said kicking the wrecked car.
“No sense calling the cops out to this s****y, backwoods road.” Noel
pulled her Blue Chevy Malibu around the wreckage and onto the dark road. Scott noticed the smell of cinnamon in
abundance in the car and shook his head.
A snowman hung from the rear view mirror. Scott pushed his with his finger making it
swing. “Still
into Christmas all year ‘round?” Noel
nodded. “My
name kind of demands it, you know. I
continue to annoy all of my friends and my roommate with Christmas cheer even
in the summer.” “It’s
crazy that you were the one to find me.
What are you doing back here?” He gestured to the full back seat. Noel shifted in her seat. “It’s
been a while since I’ve been back to this area,” she recollected. “I swore I would never return after
graduation. I have no ties to anyone.” “So
why are you here?” Scott watched her shrug.
“There’s
some unsettled business I have here.”
She stared at the road. “I was sitting in my apartment the other night
wondering what I was going to do with the week I had off.” “And
you came here?” Scott raised an
eyebrow. “Yeah,
well, maybe I was meant to come here just to be your knight in shining
armor. By the way, what were you doing
on this road at night?” Scott
wasn’t sure if he wanted to divulge his pitiful life to her. Noel didn’t look like she had been
traveling. The little black dress she
wore screamed party not road trip. She
had wedges pushed off to the side of the floor while she drove barefoot. Scott couldn’t help but glance at her hands
again. No ring. That was surprising. Noel didn’t have the easiest life, but she
was determined, smart, and sexy as hell.
That part hadn’t escaped his accident-rattled brain. He, on the other hand, had everything he ever
wanted, but was miserable. “I’m
fine. I just don’t really want to talk about my life right now.” Lights
from the city were coming into view as they departed from the wooded country
road and began to see civilization.
Scott hated what he saw. He had
grown up here, lived here, and in his mind, he had already died here. Noel
seemed proud that she could remember the streets and landmarks without
assistance. “You
can just drop me off at my house,” Scott said.
“I can give you the address.” “Um,
I don’t think you should be left alone,” Noel said looking at the wound on his
forehead. “I’m not a doctor, but I’m
pretty sure that if there is any chance of a concussion, you aren’t supposed to
go to bed. In fact, you probably should
go to a hospital.” “Trust
me, Noel. I’m"Ow!” He swatted her hand as she pulled her finger
back from poking his head. “What the
hell?” “Yeah,
you aren’t okay. Remember that time you
hit your head really hard when we went bridge jumping in middle school?” She puffed out her chest and lowered her
voice. “Naw, guys, I’m good. I’m fine.” “That’s
a horrible imitation of me,” Scott mumbled; still shielding his head. “It’s
not funny,” Noel pouted. “I watched as
you walked halfway up the hill to the bridge and pass out. Three of us carried
you through the woods and down the road until a car saw us. The driver called 911, and you were"a mess. I
was really scared.” Scott
noted the change in her voice. This was
going to be awkward. Neither of them
addressed it though. Instead, Noel
slapped the steering wheel. “I
have a hotel room booked. You can come back there with me, and then we will go
out.” She didn’t wait for him to agree. Instead, she turned on the radio. “I
remember waking up to you in the hospital,” Scott said absently. The day that
he had jumped off the bridge. He
remembered climbing the hill and blacking out.
The next thing he remembered was waking up in the hospital. His mother and a doctor were talking. His friends Elliott and Thomas were sitting
in chairs. Noel was there. Noel, with her blonde hair sticking out of
her headband and freckles in mass across her face, stood with a towel wrapped
around her to dry her off from the river water. No Dad, though. Noel
smiled as she remembered, too. “Well,
like I said, I was scared.” At
the hotel, Scott insisted that Noel go in and get checked into her room. He was perfectly fine loading her luggage on
the hotel's cart. She returned just as
he was closing her truck. “Thanks
for that,” she said pointing to the cart.
He nodded and started pushing it to the entrance. Noel started to protest, but he gave her a
look that told her not to baby him. They
successfully made it to the room, and Scott stood awkwardly as Noel pushed all
of her stuff roughly onto the floor and shoved the cart back in the
hallway. When the door had closed, she
skipped to the bed and fell onto her back letting the springs bounce her weight
for a second. “I've
haven't felt a bed in a while,” she said. Scott sat on the edge of the dresser
across from the bed. “It's
kind of ironic considering that I was not the best kid in school,” Noel slipped
her shoes off and stretched her legs.
“I'm a guidance counselor at a high school.” The
amused look on his face must have been very telling about Scott's thoughts
because she reached back and grabbed a pillow to throw at him. He caught it in the chest. “I
saw that look, Scott Masters,” she stood up and walked towards her bags strewn
across the floor. “I'm a damn good one.” “I
didn't say anything.” He watched as she
squatted by a bag and started pulling out toiletries. “Hey,
is Maria's cafe still around?” Maria's
was a huge after-school hangout that all of the kids used to go to
after-school. If you were lucky, you
beat the crowd there because it was packed.
Pretty soon, the owner had to expand and create an outdoor area as
overflow. It soon only became a student
hangout which made it a great alternative to other after-school options. “Yeah,
it is, but the place closes at seven on the weekends. It’s kind of turned into
a student clubhouse during the week. You
and I are too old to go there.” Noel
smirked. “Curious. Well, I know I need a
shower. You should probably get one
after I'm done. Sorry, I don't have any
boy clothes to offer you.” “I
think I'll be fine.” She smiled and
headed into the bathroom. “Don't
you dare fall asleep,” she called out as she closed the door. Scott
mimicked Noel's earlier move and fell back onto the bed. His head did ache a little. He wasn't going to admit that to Noel, or she
would ship him off to the hospital. Scott
hadn’t thought about his cell phone during the events of the night, and only
because it was vibrating against his leg now did he even remember that it was
in his pocket. He reached in and pulled
the device out so he could see the screen.
Nine missed calls and seventeen texts.
Currently, he was receiving a call from Jeremiah Masters. His father was the last person that he wanted
to talk to, and there was nothing that could change that including a near-death
accident; which this wasn’t. Scott
tossed the phone next to him on the bed and sat up. Weather he subconsciously meant to or it was
by accident, his ears heard the flow of water in the shower stop and his eyes
directed their focus to the bathroom door.
It wasn’t fully closed. A slight crack between the door and the frame
caught his attention. He didn’t need great eyesight to see a glimpse of Noel
exiting the shower. Her skin glistened
from the water droplets that had beaded on her skin. Scott glanced away. It had been twelve years since he had seen
her leave the town for what she said was forever. Now, he was in a hotel with her. Scott looked again. She was facing away from him with her side to
the door. Reaching down, Scott watched
her step into black panties and slide them up her shapely legs. She wiggled as she pulled them up over her
butt. Damn. Scott what are you doing? He
stood up quickly and walked to the window.
They had a past for a reason.
These things didn’t need to be re-visited. “Hey,
I’m done.” Scott turned around and tried
to look like he hadn’t just spied on her.
He wasn’t sure it was working.
The feeling in the pit of his stomach wasn’t eased as she stood there in
a cute light sweater and skirt. Noel was
still drying her hair. “So, are you
going to get a shower now or not?” Scott
closed the door"all the way. A shower
would definitely help"maybe even the headache, too. He slipped out of his clothes and stared at
himself in the mirror. He was
dirty. There was a dark bruise from the
impact of the steering wheel during the crash.
He ran his finger over it and winced at the pain. Scott closed his eyes
once the water started flowing over him.
He probably should have checked some of those texts. He had left the house in the heat of the
arguments going on in his house. Hell, Scott.
I’m glad your mother isn’t alive to see what a screw up you’ve become. I
literally don’t know what’s worse; the fact that you haven’t amounted to
anything in your life or the fact that the only thing you managed to produce is
an unplanned pregnancy. Scott could
give a little credit to the fact that his dad had been drunk, and for once in
his life, Scott wasn’t. He just stood there and took it with his brother and
sister awkwardly sitting in the living room.
Scott had a love/hate relationship with them. He loved them because they were family, but
hated them because they were perfect. Well, s**t, dad. Thanks for telling me how you really
feel. Thanks for reminding me that I’m
not the perfect kid like Sarah, the lawyer and Kevin, the accountant. I’m a failure. No, Scott, you’re a screw up. Failure just means you weren’t good enough to
pass. Screw-up means you have potential,
but you’re too fucked up in the head to make it work. What do you call a man who makes
everything in life work except his family?
What do you call a man who is the reason why his wife killed
herself? What do you call yourself? Scott hadn’t tried to duck the
whiskey bottle that was thrown at his head. His dad was just too drunk to throw
straight. Both Sarah and Kevin had tried
to stop him. Talk with us. Think things through. You can come and live with one of us;
start over. He
felt like the water had surpassed its use in getting him clean now. He had been
in the shower long enough. Scott started to dry off and put on his clothes when
there was a knock on the bathroom door. “Um,”
he said staring at the door wondering if it was going to open. Do I
want it to open? “Hey,
so I fully understand that you might feel awkward wearing this. I have big sweatpants, and I do have an old
floppy shirt that would work for you.”
Scott laughed. He opened the door slightly and stepped back. Noel threw the clothes inside, and he closed
the door. Surprisingly, the shirt
fit. It was tight, but it made him look
like he was wearing a muscle shirt. The
sweatpants were tight, but not awkwardly.
“Where
did you get clothes this big? You are
not this large,” he called out. Scott
stepped out of the bathroom carrying his ball up clothes in hand. Noel covered her mouth and laughed. “They
really do fit. A little snug, but they
fit.” There was a twinkle in her
eye. “So, listen, I know you said that
Maria’s closed at seven, but what if we grab food on the way and chill at the
outside courtyard? Just for old time’s sake.”
She
pleaded with her eyes. Damn.
He nodded knowing that she wasn’t going to let him out of her sight
anytime soon. He grabbed his phone, and
she grabbed her purse. When they stepped
out in the hall, she bit her lip and closed the door. “I’d
feel really bad if I didn’t tell you this, but the sweatpants"you know how
girls wear ones with words on the butt?”
Scott froze. “These
sweatpants have a word on the butt?”
Noel nodded. “It
says ‘Juicy’.” Maria's
was dark. It was still fairly light
outside thanks to the summer daylight savings time, and the two trespassers
didn't have to stumble around too much in order to get to the back side of the
establishment. Scott carried a big bag
of Chinese take-out with both hands as he followed Noel through the side alley
that Maria's shared with another building.
He felt like they were young again; sneaking into a place where they
shouldn't be. The
back of the restaurant was actually really beautiful. A large grassy field looked over a lake two
hundred yards from the building. Noel
climbed up the porch steps leading to the patio seating and sat down at a table
with a contented look on her face. “I
can't believe that this place still looks so nice.” “Yeah,”
Scott said plopping the bag of food down on the table and sitting next to
her. “They've done some renovations
inside, but for the most part, Maria's has stayed the same.” “She
used to kick kids out for making out and having sex in the bathrooms,
remember?” Noel laughed. “She walked in
when Tommy Roland had his pants down, and Patricia Wilford was just standing
there looking at it as if she didn't know what to do.” “Tommy
was gross anyway.” Noel
reached in and grabbed the cartons of food.
“Wait. I have to read my fortune
cookie first.” She
pulled one out of its package and cracked it open. Scott watched as she read the small strip of
paper while chew on the crunchy cookie. “Ha!”
Noel leaned her head back and laughed.
“It says ‘just around the corner is a reminder of your past. A lesson awaits you’. Congrats, you are officially my lesson.” “You’re
sure it’s talking about me?” Scott joked.
She nodded. “I
mean I did recognize the front desk agent from the hotel. I think he might have been an usher at the
church I used to get dragged to as a kid.” “So,
why a school guidance counselor?” Scott asked while dishing some rice onto a
small paper plate. “I
guess because I wanted to help kids look at the bigger picture and not be
afraid of what they would see. I think
that both of us can relate to that. So
many of those students that I deal with don’t know how to process the s**t that
life throws at them, and I’m not saying that I have it all together. I live in a small apartment in Philadelphia
with a roommate who likes to bring guys home on the weekends and ship them off
before Monday. I frequent bars and clubs
enough that bouncers and bartenders know my life, and I always leave a little
too early so I can go home and binge watch TV shows on Netflix. I probably should have some sort of religious
or church life, and I don’t. I haven’t
talked to my mother in ten years, and my father is very comfortable with his
new family. The only one I have that is
really reliable in my life is my sister, Grace.
She has kept me grounded. She's amazing. In fact, she's coming down
tomorrow to meet up with me.” They
sat for a moment and ate while watching the sky’s light slowly fading. Noel snickered. “Well,
I guess I gave you a mouthful of info about me.
How about you? How have you been
since…” Scott
felt his phone vibrate again in his pocket.
He waited for it to stop, and then started to answer. Once again, the phone began to vibrate. Scott sighed and pulled it out. He pushed the power button to turn it off. “Someone’s
trying to reach you? You don’t want to
answer it?” Scott shook his head. “It’s
my dad, and I’m not in the mood to talk with him. Besides, I’m talking to
you. My life,” Scott slowly let a deep
breath out. “My life really isn’t the
best example of success. Went to college
for about a year and got kicked out for doing drugs. Tried community college
here and just didn’t feel like it was for me.
My dad got tired of having two amazing kids and a loser one; so he
shipped me off to work for a friend of his in Texas at one of his business
warehouses. Things went well for a while.
Made some good money and caught some attention while I was there.” “That
sounds good.” Noel crossed her legs and leaned back as she listened. “Yeah,
see the attention I caught was from the boss’s daughter.” Noel coughed and sat up. “I
take it back. This doesn’t sound good at all.” “Well,
I got her pregnant. My dad’s friend
called him and told him I was a low-life son of a b***h, and if it wasn’t for
the fact that his princess begged him not to do anything, he would have killed
me. Well, I somehow found my way back
here after she got an abortion and told me that she didn't want to be with me
anymore.” Scott
sighed. Why am I telling you this? This
isn’t the side I want you to see of me.
“I
don’t talk about this with anyone.” Scott scratched his head. “I feel like either you tricked me into talking,
or you made me feel really comfortable about it; either way, though kids at
your school don’t stand a chance.” “I
don’t want you to feel uncomfortable,” Noel said softly. “And I don’t want you to think I’m trying to
go all counselor on you. We have a past,
you know. No matter what, I do care
about you. I want the best for you.” They
were both quiet for a few seconds. Only
the sound of the crickets beginning to warm their legs to serenade the night
echoed through the night view. Noel
slapped the table with her hand. “Speaking
of the past, how about we hit up our high school? There has to be something going on there
where the doors are open, and we can get inside.” “Our
old school? Wow, I haven’t been back there in a long time.” Noel started packing up the take-out cartons. “Come
on, let’s take a walk down memory lane.” Occasionally,
some of the sports teams held summer sessions at the school, and football was a
big thing for the town. Scott remembered
trying out for the football team, and the one year he was on it, they started
practices in late July. It was awful as
a kid unless you were die-hard into football.
Scott was not that committed; a fact that his dad brought up time and
again. The man who watched games from
noon until close to midnight on Sunday during football season and donated
obscene amounts of money to college, high school, and middle school football
teams saw his son as a loser in another facet of life. He
and Noel parked in a far corner of the school parking lot and walked around the
side of the school to where the boy’s locker room door was open. It was already late, and the team wasn't
going to be out on that field much longer. “You’re
pretty bad for a guidance counselor,” Scott said. “Do you advise all of your girl students to
sneak into the boy’s locker room?” “Only
if there is hope for them to actually get a boy to like them.” Noel didn’t hesitate once they got to the
door. It was more than just
wrinkle-your-nose type funk that permeated the room. It was a fall-on-your-knees and
throw-up-and-cry type smell. Noel leaned
against the wall and then jumped up. “I
really don’t want to subject myself to whatever disease is in here,” she
gagged. Scott laughed as they took
light, but quick steps over the overflowing gym bags and damp floors. Once they exited into the school, both of
them leaned against the hallway wall and took deep breaths. “Oh
my God, I swear it didn’t stink that bad when I played,” Scott rubbed his
watering eyes. “Oh,
it probably did,” Noel placed a hand on his shoulder, “but you always cleaned
up well, Scott. So, nobody would have
noticed from you. Come on.” Briskly
walking down the quiet hallway, the two of them ducked into the school
auditorium. It was empty. The stage looked like it had been used to
store random stuff that didn’t have a home anywhere else in the school. Noel
flipped the lights on and the two of them walked to the front. “This
was my home,” Noel twirled around with her arms out and head tilted back. “There was a point in time that I wanted to
be an actress.” “I
remember.” Scott sat down and threw his legs over the arm rest of the
chair. “Ninth grade you tried out for
the school play and landed Sandy in Grease.” “Aww,
you remembered that?” Noel hopped up and sat on the edge of the stage. “You
were in tight leather pants, and you had every guy wishing he was playing the
lead male character.” Noel blushed a
little. “Well,
I was horrible at it,” Noel said. “I
don’t know why I chose a musical as my first play, too. I can’t sing.” “You
were pretty bad.” Scott laughed at her frown.
“But you still did it, and you still captured my attention.” Noel
slid off of the edge of the stage. She
sat down next to Scott. “You
were the only one I wanted to pay attention to me,” Noel said. She stared at the stage. “You and I were friends for so long, but I
always think a part of me fantasized about liking you. You were a constant in my life, and I didn’t
have a lot of that with my family or life in general.” “We
don’t have to talk about us, Noel.” She
nodded. “It
was going to happen at some point anyway. Did you think we were going to see
each other and not talk about how we left things?” There was a sudden shift in the
atmosphere. A sickening feeling in the pit
of Scott’s stomach made him feel like throwing up the Chinese food from
earlier. Noel didn’t look at him. The truth was that seeing her again brought
back feelings; feelings that he had stuffed down a long time ago. She was the only person growing up that
treated him as if she believed in him.
His father saw him as a loser, his brother and sister pitied him, his
mother was embarrassed by him, and everyone else just saw him as a spoiled rich
kid who would float through life and then fall flat. He even believed that. “It
scared me to know that you liked me,” Scott admitted. “It scared me to know
that I liked you. I mean, I wanted to
ask you to prom our senior year, and I bailed on that.” “I
remember, I held out hope that you would ask.
Instead, I went with Elliott, and later that night, we heard that you
had gotten busted with weed again.” She
shook her head. “The typical bad boy.” She
stood up and grabbed his arm. Scott
wasn’t sure where they were headed, but he followed her out of the auditorium
and through the hallway. They walked
into the gym and into the middle of the floor.
It was late now, and the football team was definitely done by now. It was dark in the gym, and Noel let her
phone guide them. She placed her phone
on the floor and stood facing Scott as if waiting for him to do something. “Um,
I’m lost, Noel. What are we doing?” “I’m
waiting for you to ask me to prom,” she said elbowing him in the side. “You
don’t get these second chances often.” “Seriously?”
Scott groaned putting his hands on his hips.
She leaned over as if whispering a secret. “Here’s
a little tidbit of info. I’m cool with
guys in sweatpants that say ‘Juicy’ on the back.” Scott
shook his head. “Good
one. Okay. Noel, I was hoping that"you would go to prom
with me.” Noel’s
jaw opened as if she was surprised. She
mocked excitement; mouthing the word “me” and pointing to herself. “I
was not expecting that! Oh, Scott, of course I’ll go with you.” She
then reached down and grabbed her phone.
Pop music started playing from the tiny speakers. She put the phone back on the floor and stood
up. “Now,
you ask me to dance.” Scott grabbed her hand.
“Noel,
will you dance with me?” She came closer
to him and nodded. He placed his hands
on her waist and stared down at her feet to make sure he didn’t step on
them. Noel took a hand and put it under
his chin. She tilted his head so that he
looked at her. “Look
at me.” He did. Her eyes were beautiful. Somehow, he had spent most of the night avoiding
them. Had she been looking at him like this the whole time. There was no hate or spite or pity. Noel must have sensed what he was thinking. “I
still believe in you, Scott. That’s not
going to change.” Without
knowing he was going to do it, Scott leaned down and pressed his lips against
hers. He slowly pulled her in close and leaned into the kiss. Crap!
Crap! Scott, what the hell are you doing! He quickly pulled away and let her go. Noel stood there almost expressionless. She
didn’t break her gaze away from him. “I’ve
got an idea.” She said it so
matter-of-factually, he couldn’t tell if she was upset by the kiss or happy he
did it. Noel reached down and grabbed
her phone. “Come on, we’ve got to go.” Scott
sat watching the moonlight shine through the trees as Noel drove. His head was still hurting. It was a dull ache. Nothing to worry about. Noel had immediately turned the radio on and
pumped up the music. Scott fiddled with
his phone and debated turning it on.
Maybe someone had found his car smashed against the tree. More than likely, someone recognized it and
had said ‘good riddance’. “We’re
almost there.” Noel’s energy was
evident. The road really didn’t register to Scott. It was another backwoods country road, and
there were a lot of those around. The
trees suddenly parted, and Scott suddenly knew where he was. “The
cabin. I remember this cabin. It was Elliott’s family cabin. We used to come up here in the summers over
the weekends.” “We
had a lot of fun up here, didn’t we?” Noel
parked the car near the front door.
Scott stepped out of the car and took a deep breath of the fresh
air. The night air was cool, and the
stars were shining in a cloudless sky.
They were close enough to where they could see city lights, but far
enough away to only hear quietness. It
took him a moment to realize that Noel had disappeared. The cabin looked a little ominous midst the
dark background of the night. The swing
hanging from the large oak in front of the cabin had been replaced with a much
sturdier one than the contraption they had used as kids. Lights
flickered on in the cabin, and the front door opened revealing the glowing face
of his companion. Noel held up a key in
the cabin light. “I
didn't think they would move the spare key from where they hid it when we were
kids. It was still in that fake rock
beside the back porch. Not very easy to find at night, by the way.” Scott
closed the door behind him and watched as Noel started looking through the
living room. “I'm
betting that there is something we can start a fire with,” she mumbled. “Ambiance
is everything,” she said looking back at him.
“I think there is some wood on the back porch.” Scott
made his way out of the back door. There was plenty of wood actually. He
grabbed an arm load. She still hadn't
said anything about the kiss. Was he
reading into this too much? After
dropping a second load of wood inside, Scott saw her appear from another room
with a lighter and a box of fire starter.
She gave them to Scott, and in a couple of minutes, the fireplace had a
flame growing in it. Noel cheered and
scampered over to shut the cabin lights off.
She jumped on the couch across from the fireplace and pulled her legs up
onto the couch. Scott sat down next to
her. “I
really hope they aren't planning a trip up here tomorrow,” he said. “They might be a little freaked out.” Noel didn't seem to pay attention to what he
said. “Growing
up, we had four in the house,” Scott said.
“The only one that was ever lit was the one in my dad's office. When we
were up here as kids was the only time I really felt like I was in a home.” “Yeah,”
Noel agreed. Scott glanced at her. “And
I always felt at home with you.” Noel
looked at him. The firelight danced on
the walls behind them. She gave a faint
smile and looked away, but she scooted close to him and laid her head on his
arm. They sat in silence for a moment
with only the crackling of the flames to accompany them. “I'm
sorry,” he said softly. “I'm sorry for everything I did and said back then. You
were the best thing that happened to me, and I shut you out.” “Shut
me out?” Noel looked up at him. “Scott,
I came to you and told you that I loved you and would always love you, and you
basically told me to go to hell. You literally told me to go to hell.” “Because
you told me that if I didn't get my life right, I would never be happy,” Scott
closed his eyes. He remembered Noel
walking up to him as he sat on the bleachers of the football field at
school. She was decked out in her
graduation regalia, and he had a beer can in his hand. You
missed graduation. Why can't you just
get over the pity party you keep having for yourself? You act like the world is against you because
your dad treats you like s**t. My family
life isn't the best either, but you don't see me walking around defeated. It
had been her version of a pep talk.
Scott had looked at her in anger at the nerve she had to bring that up. Right,
Noel. You walk around pretending like
you are walking on cloud nine, but you can live on wishes. I'm not trying to do that. Noel
stomped her foot and pointed at him with fire in her eyes. You
are a sad little boy, Scott. I love
you. I love you so much, and I always
will; but if you don't get your act to together, you will never be happy. You'll always make your sadness your best
friend. Scott
took a final drink of the beer in his hand.
Go
to hell, Noel. I don't need your love. Staring
at the fire now, Scott shook his head. “I
threw away the only thing good in my life.”
Noel pulled away from him. She
placed her hand on his cheek. Her soft
hand cradled his cheek as she whispered.
“You
didn't throw it away. You just misplaced
it.” Scott
felt her lean forward and brush her lips against his. She let them linger there as if waiting for
him to accept that they were there. He
reached his hand around the back of her neck and parted her lips with his
tongue. Her breath quickened as she
allowed him to control the formations of her mouth. Scott felt his heart beat faster. He felt her leg swing over his lap, and the
weight of her body fall against his chest.
Her hand moved up to his head, and she ran her fingers through his hair
all while locking her lips to his. Her
body was warm. His headache that had
been a dull thud in the back of his mind had disappeared. Noel leaned back and moved her hands to his
shirt. “Raise
them,” she nodded to his arms. He
obeyed. She slid his shirt off; careful
not to touch his head wound. Scott
closed his eyes as she ran her hands down his chest and stomach. There was love in every touch. He had never experienced that feeling with
any girl he had even been with. Was this
what it was supposed to feel like? “Look
at me.” Scott opened his eyes again.
Noel took his hands and pulled them to her breasts. He felt a surge of energy fill his body as
she guided his hands down the front of her body to her thighs straddling his
lap. Scott felt her smooth skin as his hands went under her skirt and gripped
her hips. Noel kept her eyes fixed on
his. In one swift movement, he gently
placed her on the couch next to him and laid her down. “Go
ahead,” Noel placed his hands back on her thighs, and he slid her skirt off. He
ran his hands up her legs and torso until he stretched himself over her and his
face was inches from hers. Noel
swallowed as he held her gaze; his hands on either side of her head. “Scott,
I will always love you.” The
fire had died down to embers. Noel lay
asleep in Scott's arms. He loved the
feeling of her stomach rising and falling with his hand caressing it. What a night.
This was crazy. The fact that Noel had been the one to enter into his
eyes at just this moment was"fate? Scott
looked at the sweatpants laying on the floor. In the stripping of the clothes,
his phone had come out of the pocket. It
was just in reach. Scott slowly lifted
himself over Noel and grabbed it. Time
to turn you on and see what hell awaits.
Twenty missed calls. 47 new
messages. All of the missed calls were
from his dad. Call
one. Stupid, son of a b***h. Answer
the phone. Call
two. D****t, Scott. You need to pick up. Call
three. I don't know what I did to
deserve you. Call
four. Maybe you've finally found
something worthwhile to do. Call
five. Your mother would be ashamed
of you.
Scott
listened to every single voice mail left on the phone. By number ten, his voice mail was full. The phone went airborne and smashed into the
brick by the fireplace. Noel jolted
awake. “Scott! What's wrong?” Scott moved her aside and stood up with his
anger boiling. His dad hated him so much
that he had to leave messages on his phone telling him that he was nothing to
the man. Noel grabbed his hand. “Scott,
talk to me!” He
looked at her. Noel's faith in him was
misplaced. He wasn't worth it. Without
warning, a sharp pain seemed to pierce his skull. Scott went down to the floor on his knees
with a shout. “Scott!” Noel went down to his side. She held him as he cried out and tried to
suck in his breath to take away from the pain.
“Scott! Come on, we need to go.” He
couldn't think. The pain was blinding
him. Noel helped him up and onto the
couch where he curled up in a ball. She
quickly slipped her shirt and skirt on and then gathered his clothes. It took a lot of strength to get his on, but
they did. Noel held him as they walked
out of the cabin and to the car. “Ah!
It hurts so bad!” Scott gripped the
sides of the seat when he sat in the passenger’s seat. Noel ran around the front of the car and
jumped in the driver's seat. She spun
the car around and sped back down the entrance to the cabin area. “Take
deep breaths, Scott. I'll get you
there.” Her voice was calm, and he tried
to focus as much as he could on the ignoring the pain. He closed his eyes, and felt the car speeding
up, taking curves as a fast speed, and swerving now and then. Minutes passed with
Noel re-assuring him the entire way.
Then, “We're
here, Scott! Come on!” Scott opened his eyes expecting to see the
lights of a hospital emergency entrance.
There were no lights other than the ones from Noel's car, and they shone
on the wreckage of a car smashed into a tree.
“Scott,
you have to trust me,” she grunted as she guided him to his car. They walked over to the driver's side with
the door still hanging open. Scott eased
down in the seat and allowed Noel to push him back in the seat. He was
confused. Noel seemed to know what was
going on, but he couldn't understand. “What
are you doing? Why are we doing this?”
He kept asking. Noel reached around and
fastened the seat belt across his body. “It's
okay, Scott,” she placed her hand on his
cheek. “Listen to me, okay.” Scott
turned his head to her and nodded. “Yeah,”
he said. Noel smiled softly and stroked
his cheek. “Okay. Okay, Scott.
You need to believe that I love you.
You need to believe that no matter what, you can drop this act where you
only accept that you are worthless.” Tears flowed from her eyes. “It isn't too late for you to have the love
you need and want. Please.” Scott
leaned into her hand. Her eyes pleaded
with him. Tonight, for the first time in
his life, he truly believed what she was saying. He had pushed away every hope and blamed
every mistake and dumb decision on the fact that he was under the curses of his
father. “You
are loved,” Noel said as he looked into her eyes. He nodded. His eyes began to feel heavy as
the pain seemed to increase. “I
know, Noel. I know. I love you.”
Noel
nodded and smiled. “Close
your eyes, now.” Soft
hands. Scott smiled at the thought of Noel's touch on his cheek. His head hurt like a b***h, but at least that
comforted him. “Come
on, Scott, open your eyes.” Wait. That wasn't Noel's voice. That was definitely someone else. Scott struggled to open his eyes. The woman's figure was blurry. The hair looked a little like Noel's. The shape of her head. The shape of her eyes. Her touch.
His sight started to come into focus.
It wasn't Noel. “Scott,
are you okay?” The woman looked away and
called out, “Hey over here! He's awake!” “Noel?”
Scott mumbled. “Noel.” The
woman stared down at him. Tears formed
in her eyes as she stood up. His view of
her was suddenly interrupted by several figures. Firemen?
Paramedics? Scott closed his eyes
as he felt people working around him. “I'm
okay,” he said as hands started trying to get him out of the car. “I'm fine. I'm not hurt.” “Just
let us check you out, buddy. You've been in a horrible accident.” Scott nodded as he was helped out of the
vehicle. It took some assistance, but he
stood up straight and tried to get his bearings. His car was smashed. The passenger's door was ripped off. The hood of the car looked like someone had
taken a wrecking ball to it. He stared
at the front of car. He hadn't hit a
tree. He had hit another car. Scott shook his head. Blood was on the broken windshield. The driver's side was caved in. “No! This isn't right! Wait!” Scott pulled away
from the EMT and started walking back. “Sir,
you need to come with me,” the man said.
Scott pushed him away. He hadn't
hit a tree. Entangled in the front of
his car was the front of a blue Chevy Malibu.
Scott tried to fight his way to the wreckage, but more hands grabbed him
and pulled him away and to an ambulance.
Scott looked around. “Where's
Noel? Where is she?” The emergence responders tried to calm him
down. Finally, he saw it. A stretcher.
A small form covered in a white sheet.
A naked wrist visible with the tattoo of Faith. Hope. Love. A part of a black dress peeked out. Scott
felt numb as he was checked out and asked questions. He didn't answer. He couldn't answer. He didn't know what had happened. How could this have happened when she was
just with him? Her hand had been on his
face. Her lips had touched his. She had
told him that she loved him. “We're
going to take you to the hospital for further testing, sir. Just climb on in here.” Scott
did so; numbly. His chest felt
heavy. His throat felt raw. His head hurt. “Wait!
Please! I am going with him. I'm a doctor.” Scott heard a woman arguing with the
emergency staff. Finally, he saw her
step into the back of the ambulance with him.
She was the one he had seen when he opened his eyes in the car. She looked very similar to Noel. “Noel,”
he thought out loud as he fought to forget the images he just saw. The woman reached out to him. “Scott,”
she said softly. He looked up to see tears in her eyes. She was crying, but trying to hold it
in. “Noel is dead. She"she was killed"on impact.” Scott
felt his stomach turn. Noel was
dead. The woman continued. “Please,
Scott. You"you knew my sister.” Scott looked up at her. The woman's eyes pleaded with him just like
Noel's had. “You knew Noel. She once told
me that I would meet you someday, and that we would help each other.” “No"Noel's
sister?” Scott frowned. Was he hearing
this right? The woman nodded and wiped
away a few tears. “My
name is Grace.” -------------------------- The
day was beautiful. Sunshine beamed
through the trees and cast fun shadows on the ground. It was something she would have enjoyed. She
would have loved it. Scott was sure of
it. “You
sure you want to do this?” Scott sat in the passenger’s seat of the rental
looking out of the windshield. In
response, he opened the door and stepped out in the summer afternoon. Grace followed suite and stepped out of the
car. Scott knew this was harder for her,
but somehow, she seemed to be taking this better than he. The
two of them walked across the road to where just two weeks ago Scott was pulled
from the scene of a head-on collision with his childhood best friend and
Grace’s sister, Noel. It was
surreal. Something happened that night
that changed Scott forever, and for one last time, he just wanted to be here to
remember Noel’s voice telling him that she loved him. Grace
had listened. Noel said she was good at
that. In the midst of setting up funeral
arrangements for her sister in New York, Grace had also been at the hospital
visiting him for the two days he was kept there. She listened to his story, which seemed so
unbelievable as he told it; but she just smiled and cried as if she knew that
he was telling the truth. “It
all sounds like her,” Grace had said.
“And I don’t know how, but I feel like it was her one last good thing
she could do; one last time to let you know that you were loved.” Scott
reached out and grabbed Grace’s hand now as they stared at the accident
area. He cleared his throat and took a
deep breath. “Noel,
I wonder if you can hear me. I just want
to let you know that you changed my life.
In one night, you changed my life. Thank you for loving me.” He
looked over at Grace who had tears flowing down her cheeks. She was smiling though. “Big
sis,” she choked out. “I love you so
much. You always said that you would
make this world a better place, and you did.
Even up to your last breath. I
will continue that legacy. I promise.” Scott
squeezed her hand, and Grace leaned into his embrace. They were leaving. Boarding a train to Philadelphia for Noel’s
funeral, and for Scott, a new beginning.
Grace knew of a friend who needed a foreman for his construction business,
and she offered for him to stay in the second bedroom of her apartment until he
got his own. He was leaving this town,
and this time, it was for good. Leaving
his past, his mistakes, his father’s curse over him, and his curse over
himself. “You
ready to go,” Grace said softly. Scott
was ready. He finally ready. “Yeah,”
Scott said. “Let’s go.” © 2017 A.C. Jones |
StatsAuthorA.C. JonesViginia Beach, VAAboutMedia producer, hip hop artist, poet, fictional writer, blogger, sport fanatic, nature-love, coffee drinker, thrill seeker, movie and tv show junkie, animal lover, rollercoaster phien, beach bum, moun.. more..Writing
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