Reality

A Poem by renyld

My souls empty and rotting
My mind keeps plotting
Different ways to hurt me
To never let me be
It will destroy me forever
Put me through this torturous endeavor
In my head, I want to die
So I begin to say my goodbyes
Never again will I feel this way
Never will I have to see another day
Soon this will all be over
The end, I absolutely adore
Here I am ready to jump
To never again look up
I try to think of reasons to stay
To refrain from blowing my life away
Am I even worth having around?
Would anyone even stand astound?
I don't feel anyone really cares
Is there even anyone really there?
Do I imagine the people I talk to?
Do I make them up? Pretend to pursue-
friendships I don't really hold?
Am I alone in the cold?

I want to lose this feeling
I want my life to be appealing.
I just want to be happy.