Ode to the A*****e I�d Like to Push Down the Stairs Again and Again

Heartbreak. Disappointment. Anger.

 

Took so long for me to see so clearly,

But once I did, I knew I’d never leave.

And you lied, not just to me,

But to the world and to yourself.

 

There’s no way you can need what you’d have

If you ever followed through on that half,

When you know it’s what you wanted, never what you deserve.

And then you condescend

And then you reprehend

And then you still pretend,

But most people do.

 

You knew from day one that I didn’t.

From the first time I melted to the last time I burned.

And I’m a sucker for a sweet smile,

You knew me for a while,

But then you started to dig down,

Where I keep nothing, because it’s all out in the open.

And you found nothing, because you couldn’t believe what I am.

 

I don’t believe a word you said now,

From the times you told me yes to that one no.

To the excuses, pathetic ruses meant as useless,

But I used it.

And I wish I’d taken more

Before I’d been kicked out the door,

So you’d at least remember I was there.

 

I knew from day one what you were trying for,

Knew that I wouldn’t have anything to do with dying for,

Crying for, but lying for, behind a closed door,

Eyes shut.

And you can’t defend this, I made your breath hitch,

And I would have done it again and again

But you’re afraid.

The bit of heartstrings you have left

Tangled up to regret this, so you say sorry,

But sorry’s not nearly enough for violating my trust,

And it’s not okay. Not today. Not this way.

By the way, you might never feel the way I did,

Cuz you’re so closed off to remembering love,

 

Didn’t think I wouldn’t realize, huh? Your Lucy in the sky,

The reason for your eyes as marred as they are,

Words as scarred as they were.

You knew. You knew exactly what you were doing,

But you tried to convince yourself all the while that, no, couldn’t be.

Couldn’t hurt me, wouldn’t damage me.

You shattered me, and it built you up.

 

 

Reviews

[L.I. Black]

First off....I adore the title haha, it's just so perfect.
The poem itself is really good too.