Sheep in Wolf's Clothing

There’s nothing here that resembles grace
This lie is a gaping, swollen place
No stitches lining up to heal it.
Where is the binding thread,
      The common ground and understanding?
Where has the needle gone?
      It’s been lanced through my heart.

They all say they know what I need
Something that would heal what doesn’t exist.
They all tell and turn the other way.
No one will ever wait for me again.
     No one did to begin with.

This pain isn’t what they know it to be.
Shouldn’t be a hope left in me,
And I realize it every time I wind up again
Lying face-down on the brink of relapse
     Hope is a disease they push into me.
Can’t they see I’m better dressed in light
     With contentment and non-expectancy?

It’s a restrictive possibility
And would it be the end of me?
I wouldn’t know anymore
If I didn’t have my hands over my eyes now.
Senseless, to think I could deserve what I’d have
I deserve nothing,
Not even a cursed absence of deserving.

They all say they know what I need
Something that would heal what doesn’t exist.
They all tell and turn the other way.
No one will ever wait for me again.
     A lamb in the presence of men
With the identity of a blood-devouring beast.
     A sheep in wolf’s clothing.

If only I could scream it to the stars
But there is not a harsh enough sound in this snowy heart
To express accumulating pain.

It’s a restrictive possibility,
And would it be the end of me?

Reviews

[Butch Decatoria]

"to think I could deserve what I'd have"

just a grammar thing. you're speaking in present tense, but end it in past tense.
"TO THINK I COULD DESERVE WHAT I HAVE"

sounds good. great poem.

The final stanza left me wondering, you may have done that intentionally I do not know, but I had an old english/creative writing teacher who "hated" ending things with a question mark. If there's a question to be left, let the reader do it, do make them do it with that ? lol. Maybe a ... or no punctuation.
Peace out.

~~Pfluffer

[Cats Eye]

This is a very touching piece of work, its simple yet well constructed.