Familiar

 

Lying on the floor

Am I still breathing?

Too slow, now too fast

My body is slamming

Next to shards of broken glass

 

The incessant tapping

 

I don’t want to die

Please don’t let me die

No, I’ll never be ready

And I won’t know how to say goodbye

 

I can’t leave the world behind

All that I haven’t done

[ All that I have ]

I haven’t said sorry

I never said thanks

Not enough time

To forgive

 

I don’t want to be alone

I don’t want to be shut away

Why exist

When I am gone?

Don’t let them cry

Unless I am no more

Unless I completely disappear

In that case I am nothing

So is there in fact

Anything to fear?

 

Lying on the floor

Thinking about the past 14 years

The truth is outlined in my ceiling

It’s not knowing

Getting through the strife

 

My heart is beating

My fingers drumming

The cold wood panels

            My chest rises

And it falls

              In that same

        Familiar

 Pattern.