The Reason

 

Sometimes I don't know what to say to you anymore

Sometimes I just wanna yell in your face and tell you "Leave Me Alone!!!"

Sometimes I wanna punch the wall and kick a chair

Sometimes I wanna jut say "I'm done with this s**t....I'm through!"

But yet again......

Most of the time I wanna laugh with you

Most of the time I wanna cry with you

Most of the time I could just hold you in my arms and say "Everything is ok"

Most of the time I wish you'd just actually feel how I feel for you

Yet again.....

Even though I have a girl....I still love you

Even though your not mine.....I still want you

Even though we can get at eachother's necks....I still need you

Even though we may wanna just give up on eachother.....I still yearn for you

Even though I'm with one and you with none.....I'm still there for you

So as I sit here spilling out all my love to you

It comes to reality that we need to slow down

But just for a while

Maybe we need a break

Maybe we need space

Maybe we need to find ourselves

We both know how we feel for one another

But we both also know my feelings are growing for another

I don't wanna let you go

Your someone special in my life

Your my special and closest friend

When I'm down...I run to you

When I need advice about my girl....I ask you

When I feel I'm about to go berzerk.....I ask for your comfort

So see the only reason I act the way I do

Is out of the love I still have for you

You may not think it is

You may think I'm trippin'

Yet I'm not it's only to show that I still care for you

And I'm afraid of losing your love you have for me

Yes the love my girl has for me I wouldn't trade for the world

But to lose the love you give to me I wouldn't be me

So when I next time get upset or jealous or whatever

Just think that behind that is my love

And it's telling me to react

You may act different in the situation

But that's you and you have to understand......I'm not you

I have a different way of thinking things

I have a different way of approaching things

I have a different way of handling things

So just actually think on how and why I act that way

Sit down one day and think of all the things I said to you

All the letters

All the messages

All the heart-to-heart moments we had

When you think of all that

You see why I act the way I do

I may need a good slap in the back of the head every now and then

But I'm human I make mistakes and I can't help on how I'm emotional about things

Either you can find a way to deal with it

Or you can be fed up with it and move on

So That's My Story........What's Your's?