The Jars of My LifeA Poem by ADo you ever feel so alone? Not in the sense That you are alone But that you feel Betrayed by your own mind Your own heart is in control You are along for the ride Yet I understood the old pain But now Why the tears fall The questions flood in The only one that is understood Is why? Your dreams are coming true Your life is turning up So beautiful Yet you feel alone I feel so lost I have become someone That I am proud of But someone I don’t know My heart has been lost… always But my mind + body with no Connection has carried on I have lost myself In the city In the likes In the need to be affirmed The need to be known To be seen As if I am invisible Screaming out Calling out, Crying out Help me; be with me Lately the nights have blurred The days have passed me by I know the regret will come I am wanting something Needing more I can’t put words To my heart cries The tears Whisper Run, escape, go My fears of Disappoint them Being a failure As if that will come As a shock to anyone I feel as if they are waiting For me to fail “they” I don’t know who they are I just cant seem to feel Anything but lost As if I’ve been Running from the Demons That controlled so Much of me Consumed My life As if I climbed Enough mountains Flew away on Enough planes Collected enough adoration Enough approval I would be able To defeat those demons Instead of always running Always trying to escape What I feel is my destiny The darkness Takes over And I’m tired I’m lost I’m tired of fighting Almost as if I close my eyes The demons will Take me away Love me enough To bring me home Where I could find stillness And be content There are two Battles I fight So strong Neither willing to Surrender To give up To let the demons win Or To fight, to conquer To once & for all Defeat the demons That have held me Captive For so long Have held me ransom In chains Where are you God? I know you won’t fail me But I’m losing My life My hope My soul Where have you gone? My tears are falling Are you collecting them? To one day Drown me in your Love Are the tears There to teach me To heal me Or are they going To destroy me I need you I need me I am lost No direction I cannot fail I cannot run Or I fear My life will Be filled with One-ways and I will never Return… © 2015 A |
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Added on July 15, 2015 Last Updated on July 15, 2015 AuthorALondon, England, United KingdomAboutMaude: Well, if some people get upset because they feel they have a hold on some things, I'm merely acting as a gentle reminder: here today, gone tomorrow, so don't get attached to things. Dream as.. more..Writing
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