Missing You Red

…. the color of friendship...

Missing You Red

 

 

It’s funny, I think.

What are friends?

I’m not sure I know anymore.

 

All my friends that I met here,

were worried that I left,

offered their good wishes,

expressed their concerns.

It made me realize

how beautiful

these friends are,

and humbled

that I willingly embrace them.

 

Lately though,

I have been feeling

like that guy

in all those Hallmark romcoms;

the guy who is

“a nice guy,

wonderful, special,

just not “The One.”

“I don’t want to lose you,

can we just be friends?”

 

Maybe it’s me,

but, it’s been over a month

and no words

have reached me.

Did I misunderstand

your promise to stay connected;

that you would share

your adventure

and journey

of self- discovery and healing

with me?

I must have.

But then, 

in all those romcoms,

the “nice guy” label

is usually a spell cast

in a disappearing act.

 

So I disappeared,

since being visible

meant staring at heart pieces

scattered all over

every page I tried to write.

Like this page,

smeared with my blood,

is just a canvas

of one color,

‘missing you red’.

 

Aztec Warrior/redzone 7.9.18

Author's Note

...thanks for reading...

Reviews

[Ardra]

Mmm sometimes being friends is only option... I have been there.....sometimes it's better to be friends than spoil the friendship....but sometimes being friends can be very difficult when your heart is always saying something else....the never ending question of girl and guy can ever be friends...lol
I have friends almost all of them guys... and we are very happy to be friends... I mean I find it less dramatic compared to my friends who are girls...guys don't judge me ...i always tend to say my mind...
But the silent kinds r very hard.. when they don't say what's on their mind .... hard ones to maintain...

I hope you find peace ....

[redzone]

thanks Ardra for your insightful comment... the problem never was about friendship, I have been and always will be her friend... and I understand and know why she needed to find her peace, but I still miss her and it hurts that she is no longer close... I think it is necessary and a good thing when girls and guys are real friends.... means seeing each other as human beings and not objects or possessions...

glad you stopped by Ardra and thanks again for your comment...

[Lyn Anderson]

Ouch. It isn't easy sometimes, when we feel connected, then to be ignored ...

[redzone]

no it isn't easy... I do understand the absence/silence, but it hurts none the less.... thanks for your comment Lyn...

[Gypsy Warrior Queen]

Im often here...at the end of your last line....I am always great but there is always someone better....Thank you for sharing redzone.

[redzone]

thanks Queenie for your visit and comment.... perhaps there is someone better, but not sure about that... does friendship mean silence???

[Gypsy Warrior Queen]

I think maybe some friendships are loud and some are silent...it depends on what kinda friend your meant to be....

[redzone]

fair enough... but I do like the loud kind, full of laughter... ;0)

[Gypsy Warrior Queen]

me too...it's the easier and warm type of friendship ...the silent kind are often hard and demanding.