Pain

....sometimes....

PAIN

 

 

I know mental pain,

the pain of longing,

of a broken heart,

or of missing the ones you love most

who have now passed,

can be a terrible

and often cruel pain.

But right now,

I would take all this pain

and ask for more,

just for a few seconds

of relief from this physical pain

that throbs

throughout my body.

I have a migraine

spreading out from my knee

that seems to laugh

and mock me

as it sears

and shreds every nerve,

some I never knew existed.

And then starts over again,

one level up.

~~~~~

Kurt Cobain sang about

the mental anguish of “Pain”

and captured it very well

in his music,

even though he said

he never had a gun

until that last moment,

until his brains and blood splattered everywhere.

I want to write poetry

the way he could sing about pain.

Nothing as fancy or metaphoric,

just straight forward words,

every day words

that would get at

and cut the heart

out of emotion,

of feeling, of needing

anything.

~~~~~

And I won’t ever promise

I don’t have a gun.

Nope, never.

So, “come as you are…

 As a known memory.”

~~~~~

I have to laugh at the ironic irony,

of a name �" Aztec Warrior;

redzone. HA!

I wish I could laugh at

the idiocy found here.

Instead I see more:

fearful, cowardly,

just a foolish old man,

his pipe dreams

floating down the river Styx.

No flaming arrows

shot into the boat

to make a warrior’s pyre,

just the slow,

methodical rowing of the oarsmen.

~~~~~

This is not a dull pain,

but sharp,

crisp and electronically charged

like being slave whipped

again and again.

So,

“Come as you are…

As a known memory.”

I will never promise

I don’t have a gun.

Nope, never.

 

Aztec Warrior/redzone 7.2.17

Author's Note

....thanks for reading...

Reviews

[barleygirl]

Excellent straightforward imagery packed with feelings, both emotional & physical! I admire you for turning a physically painful situation into something this creative! I could barely throw together a sentence when I was in throbbing pain from my neck break a few years back. But I hope this pain is as transformative for you as it was for me! *smile* Hang in there! It will be great to have a newly functioning knee after all this misery! (((HUGS)))

[Lydia Shutter]

Pain can make us say and do terrible things. After surgery, the pain can be all encompassing and you feel as though the entire world has been summoned to hammer pointy nails into your incision. Kurt Cobain took the easy way out. The Aztec Warrior will not. Your words are emotionally charged and so very real, Curt. I hope things are easier soon...very soon. Lydi**

[jacob erin-cilberto]

when the throbbing won't stop physically or mentally,
we want to pass with the others, just to have it stop...
j.