Saffron Symphonies

Saffron Symphonies

 

Hushed cellos begin,

slowly holding the notes

to the strings;

violins surrender

to the labyrinth of no way out;

a symphony of stringed voices

all asking at once:

how do we exist with pain,

with loss?

~~~

So color me saffron,

the music and poetry

found in your yellow flame,

the fire in this poem

for you have captured me,

affected me in ways

I have no words to say.

Color me in your dark mahogany hair

and vanilla scent

cause I know I will forget you

everyday

for the rest of my life.

~~~

As I grope for understanding,

searching for you in this labyrinth,

your vanilla scent calls me, I follow

the laughter I hear,

the tenderness of your lips

in that Mona Lisa smile

and your promise of continuing.

All this,

little by little

fade into shadow.

Confused, I shout:

you can’t just make the world seem whole,

then leave;

you can’t just make me

want to be alive,

write poetry,

then

   vanish

      poof

         gone!!

~~~

You accused me once:

“you don’t know who you love.

You love the girl who makes you laugh,

who drinks wine with you,

who showed you how to kiss.

But, you don’t love the crazy,

sullen b***h.”*

I countered: you never allowed me to;

cause I always wanted to know

all of you.

All the why’s,

how’s, what’s, where’s, when’s,

and now it’s the end.

~~~

Now,

you are nowhere

and I am colored in saffron,

burning in your yellow flame,

roaming this endless labyrinth**

listening to your symphony

and everything aches of missing you.

 

Aztec Warrior/redzone   2.11.17

(* Note: this is paraphrased quote from John Green’s novel,

  “looking for Alaska”… a novel I highly recommend reading

  both for its story, as well as the philosophical and moral

  questions it raises.)

(**Note: this is also part of John Green’s novel; a reference

  to the labyrinth mentioned in Gabriel Garcia Marquez’s,

  “The General in His Labyrinth” and refers to Simon Bolivar’s

  last words, “Damn it, how will I ever get out of this labyrinth.”

  Another great book. Actually any book by Marquez is worth reading..)    

Author's Note

...thanks for reading.. enjoy the music...

Reviews

[Ruth]

I am left speechless at times with your poetry, such understanding and grace, effortless and so very, very meaningful. It leaves me wrenched, thoughtful and deeply moved. As for the song, now in my favourites on Youtube, this hits my love of strings to the core, tearfully amazing x