Alive Once

...once upon a time..

Alive Once

Sitting here staring out the window,

wind blowing the tree’s around

and shaking loose some remembrances

of Spring days,

red hair

and the secret stream

hidden behind your dad’s land.

We used to sit there

under the oak,

tell each other secrets,

our youthful, wide eyed dreams.

~~~

Funny, in a way,

this memory of you-

it was one of the few times

I can say

I was happy, carefree

and wanted to be alive.

Aztec Warrior 2.17.16

thanks for reading... the music link is Diana Ross, "Love Hangover"

This was a song we loved together and I just couldn't leave it out of the poem.  See I still do write you poetry.

Author's Note

Reviews

[barleygirl]

Oh my, my! This is a deeply-touching & poignant write! Your reverie includes many details that paint a picture in the reader's mind, summoning similar scenes we've all experienced at some point. This message not only tells of a long-ago time, but it also reveals a bit about the current state-of-mind: "I was happy, carefree, and wanted to be alive."

[AprilRN1210]

It is funny how our heart can remember more vividly than our minds. little snippets of a perfect moment when the world was good and the soul was happy. The joy that another can bring with the simple act of just sharing a moment of their life with us and how it stays with us. everything from the smells, the sounds, the feel of the wind on your face warmed by the sun, simple but each having its own strong impact that lasts a lifetime. very sweet write Red. I enjoyed.

[redzone]

OMG, OMG it's April; WHOA!!! pinch pinch.. sorry had to make sure I wasn't dreaming... Curt is sitting here, calmly typing, but Red is like bonkers- leaping jumping up and down, doing flip flops, spinning on his head, dancing to music only he hears.. but OMG it's April!!! I have missed you soooooo damn much. How are you.

And thank you for the great comment.. it was hearing that Diana Ross song on the radio that brought on the poem...

OMG, OMG!!! It's April... you will have to excuse me, must go and calm Red down, he's still jumping around, acting all bonkers... I am so glad you stopped by... ;0)

[AprilRN1210]

I have certainly missed you--- you have managed to elicit a giggle this morning :)

[redzone]

Great!! If you are smiling, that explains why it is sunny here in NYC.... but even better, a sign you are happy!! and Red agrees, which is strange since he never agrees with me... hmmm, does this mean I am bonkers too??!! Sorry April, now you have two people jumping up and down, excited to see you again...

[AprilRN1210]

I am equally happy to see you two, or too.. lol
thank you

[redzone]

Well Red, decided he was going back inside me so it's too.. lol i think with all this excitement he needs a nap... not me i'm awake and ready for more coffee.. you want one?? Or tea?? ;0)

[AprilRN1210]

excitement can do that to ya, as a matter of fact, I was just about to make some coffee.

[redzone]

Coffee it is... how do you drink your coffee? wow, now that's cool.. my window faces a part of the back yard and a tree and i am watching a male and female cardinal looking for food... first time i have seen them both together, usually one or the other. Not that many birds hang out in this neighborhood...

Anyway, enjoy your coffee April...

[highonwords]

like falling in love with one's childhood sweetheart and marrying him/her, raising a family with him/her , and having all those memories tied with a single bow of that special moment you first fell in love with each other

best,
steph

[redzone]

college sweetheart and we married, but no family, just a divorce.. but it was during a time where everything in the world was changing and we loved deeply, if not forever... but I can still feel the coolness of the water in that stream and the redness of her hair... oh well ancient history...

Thanks again Steph, nice to have you walking around in my poetry..

[highonwords]

im truly sorry for what happened, curt - i can't really know the depth of the pain and sadness the end of the relationship has caused you - but i have felt pain and sorrow, myself, so i am really sorry, my friend

best,
steph

[redzone]

thanks Steph, it was a long time ago, it's a long story and I share much of the fault. I think it is how you have picked up the pieces, how you have learned to be able to treat people with mutual respect and listening that allows you to love again.. you become whole again..

I too am sorry for the pain who have suffered from.... seems that when you talk with a friend in any depth you see lots of pain that has been gone through and for the most part over come... so I am hoping you are okay Steph,

[highonwords]

i want to feel other's people pain - i want to be compassionate and kind, because it's what real people do - i mean the world is all ready full of hate and destructiveness - it's more beautiful on the other side of the world, the one where kindness and compassion stands and lives

thank you, my friend :)
steph

[Lily Finch]

Sweet memory...lovely write....

[redzone]

Hey there Lily, thanks so much for your comment..

[Lily Finch]

You welcome sir..

[Ghost of Jupiter]

Sitting there remembering back to times that were so full of love and life that you couldn't contain it... Those are precious memories my friend. I hope you can find some more moments such as these soon. We both could use a little happiness come our way again, right?! Beautifully written as always. :)

[redzone]

I know it's not the same kind of "happiness" K, but I am "happy" you stopped by, read, and found it "beautiful"!! That's a pretty nice happiness you know. As for you my friend, happiness will find you again and it won't be "little", but huge and all encompassing and leave you smiling like never before.. ;0)

[Ghost of Jupiter]

Hmmmm I am not holding my breath waiting for that huge happiness to find me... Haha. I will settle for finding joy in the small things in life. :) ;)

[redzone]

you know K, sometimes those "little joys" beging sort of like this Diana Ross song, slow, sensual and rips it!! moves into that funky sway and gets your feet taping, hips swaying, big time dancing... and that smile just appears like there is no time like this very moment and you sing, I don't need a cure of this... that kind of happy K... don't make me come out there and give it to you now... make you smile... lol ;0)

[Lyn Anderson]

I love love love it. So sad, and so sincere. Beautiful, really. But I wouldn't be me if I didn't point out tree's does not need an apostrophe. I am sure you put that there, just for me.:)

[redzone]

exactly KL, I am finding my poems are not really complete without a small imperfection in spelling or punctuation or misplace comma etc to see if you will catch me and point it out!!! hope you do not mind, cause your reviews and comments are important to me ;0) "I don't need no cure. Don't call the doctor"... I almost left out the ' in dads just to add more necessity for you... I know a devious mind, maybe I do need that doctor... lol

Pay me no mind KL, it's Friday and I am in a playful mood, it's all the smoke from that other poem.. you must know I appreciate you and your comments.. thanks

[Lyn Anderson]

I had a feeling ... but my ocd will not allow me to ignore the bait.

[redzone]

aaahhh seems we have the same typo disorder... just coming at it from opposite sides..lol.. sorry couldn't resist KL

[Lydia Shutter]

Sweet reminiscing.....back to a time when sitting by a stream with the one you loved meant more than anything in the world. The happiness in this poem is bittersweet though....because those times are gone. Heavy sigh......such a "nice" write, Curt. Lydi**

[redzone]

yea, they left a long time ago Lydi.. sometimes I wonder if that stream has the same pull for some other star crossed lovers? we went skinny dipping there once... it was so friggin cold, the water..lol.. while we wen tback to this spot many times, there was never again the urge to take our clothes off, not there at least.. hahaha.. we were young Lydi... but you know, if it were possible to love like this again, to find a spot to skinny dip I would do it in a heart beat, even if it was the dead of winter... anyway, thank you lydi for your comment

[jacob erin-cilberto]

i know i get to be a broken record with this...but your poems so often take me back to my first girlfriend...those memories etched in the grooves....i was most myself with her...and what we shared could never happen again, the same way...and didn't...with anyone.

i cherish those memories, and your poems that bring those memories back to me.

[redzone]

this poem is about my first wife and it was the love I thought I understood, but not until I met her.. so I understand what you are saying Jacob.. and also glad my words find memories for you and the groves these memories etch will always play for us...

Thanks Jacob