Self-righteous ServiceA Poem by RaeTW; Suicide mention. Please be wary.There's a point in your life where all your cares wash away When everything you lived for Just empties your mind And there's no point in living anymore You can't stay alive for your best friend, and you hate yourself for it You can't stay alive for the one you love, and you hate yourself for it You can't stay alive for your family, and you hate yourself for it You hate yourself because you know you're leaving behind people who care But you don't care You don't care about the pain you cause yourself And the pain you cause others So you decide to die You stay up until it's 2:27 and get out of bed Your feet are cold, but it's okay You look for rope, and you find it Then you remember that article you read online You don't want a high chance of survival You don't want the issues that come with it You look for a gun, and you find it Then you remember that if you shoot your temple There's a chance of the gun ricocheting or simply following the pattern of your brain And that you'll live with never wanting to try again You look for pills, and you find them Then you remember that you'll be stiff and in pain for 10 minutes Or maybe even more You decide that maybe they're not the right pills Besides, your liver issues can wait You look for a razor You decide to take apart your pencil sharpener Because you always do, and you can't find a box cutter Then you remember it's up the road And that you'll go into shock if you witness your blood Endlessly squirting out of your arm With the bittersweet pulsating of pain You look for an escape But you're too scared to do it And you hate yourself for it So you go back to bed And wait to do the same thing again
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