Starvation Proclaimation

wrote while fasting; this poem is about anorexia.

 

never good enough

no, i'm never skinny enough

how long will i starve now??

light headed and dizzy

i think i'm on the right track

wearing my heart on my sleeve

and starving for perfection

still fat however no matter how many meals i skip

emptiness in my stomach fulfills the emptiness in my heart

i just want love

i will strive to be loved back

but i just want this pain to end

i try to starve it away

it only catches up to me

it smothers me

i cannot breathe

i cannot scream

i cannot speak

but most of all i cannot eat

when i think i'm going to break

i can always turn back on anorexia

this starving pain feels so much better

than the pain of not being with you

eating makes me so ashamed

i can't stop fasting

although my heart is failing

i need beauty

i need love

i need this to survive

you can't make me eat

i won't ruin all i have worked for

this is my life.

Reviews

[Bud]

If anyone declares that you're not skinny enough...that's not love...only lust. The things we do just for a morsel of love. My heart goes out to you. Thanks for sharing such personal thoughts and feelings. Keep writing! Great work. : )