First Heartbreak

I wrote this after I experienced my first heartbreak.

I can still see your baby blue eyes staring at me

You know that I never want to leave 

Sadly life has its own plans

Which unfortunately don't include you

I miss the way you watched over and kept me close

The way you would tell me little things, Of which I loved the most

I wish that we never met, so I'd never have to feel this pain

I want to say that you mean the world to me, that so much was gained

I don't think it matters now, for we are so far away

If you ever do one thing for me, do this for my memory

Never forget me or the way I made you feel 

I miss you so much and yet not at all

I'm so conflicted and so confused with myself

Do I stay or do I leave?

With all that's left or our memories

I wish I could tell you the truth 

But I've hurt you already and don't want to do that anymore

 

Please forgive me for all my mistakes and sins

I just wanted to feel happy again and for you too

We talked everyday and all he time

But now I feel is numb and wishing you were here

I meant what I said, and I said what I meant

I will miss you and feel broken inside

All this was my fault and I can't take it back

For that I am so sorry, Goodbye for now

Author's Note

I know it's not the best, but it was what I was feeling at the time. :)