Self-Fulfilling Prophecy.A Poem by Rebecca Hope RoustonDude, you're so fn cool. Love you.
There originally was a reason, John
That you were on that side of the desk Why every night, your kind amber eyes Held hope that I'd make it to the next - You told me that I woke up gently At 3am, my blood pressure was low "I'll be back in an hour, you'll be alright" You assured me though you didn't know - You saved a seat for me in the van Soft demeanors with traumatized hearts When the music understood the pain It felt like therapy until we parked - Many years have passed since then And I watched you live the promises A self-fulfilling prophecy, you are As you gave more and took less - The nights slowly turned to excuses For why you had to stop showing up A marriage, a child, and life as it is Until everyone was pouring in your cup - Over time, you quieted to a whisper Until the addiction had room to speak Fabricating a methodical strike It knows exactly when you are weak - It's who says, "she doesn't understand me", "It won't be bad like it was back then", "I'm just having fun and I'm recovered now" And it will not cease to be your only friend - Now everything is a trigger again, love There sits no angel on the devils side Choices you make of your own free "will" Are all done in vain to serve a lie - I wish I could come to your side at night Show you everything you did to me I want to tell you it will be alright Even if right now you might disagree - The hardest part is breaking away From a void that will watch you die You do not have to stay this way But you already know what that's like - It all comes down to you, my dear In the loneliest way to reconnect Remember the reasons you fought for this Is being an alcoholic something you can accept?
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2 Reviews Added on January 17, 2024 Last Updated on January 17, 2024 AuthorRebecca Hope RoustonNeverland, MIAboutI'm Rebecca. My words are my story, your interpretation is yours. Sober since 2/4/2019, with one vacation to neverland. "Free yourself from yourself" - Tool more..Writing
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