In The End.

This blog represents the current chapter of my life. The chapter that the leading lady does not have a knight in shining armor, or a shoulder to release her tears on. This is that dark part of the story where everything just seems to go wrong, and no one seems to understand.

Once a person has come to love perfection, anything less just doesn't seem to fit. But then, when your perfection was nothing but a lie stringed along so fragile, how can one ask for it back? Answer: You can't. So, you move on with life, unwillingly and depressingly, but you do. You move on expecting never to find happiness again, knowing you will go on, living in a dark abyss.

In the end, that one friend that you thought would always be there will turn out to be the one who caused many of your troubles. That 'Best Friend' will come to lose their title due to what you understand as their betrayal, be it that or not. And once you begin to walk away, there is simply no way you can walk back, even if you wanted to, even if you thought about it..

When all has departed, you suddenly become depressed. You cry over the loved ones who have died or left, even though when it actually happened you did not spill one drop of water. You realize that now, you cannot stop spilling those stubborn tears. You find yourself alone in a crowded room.

You try your hardest to remain the person you use to be, but with the sudden change of scenery you find yourself at war with yourself, and others. You find yourself trying so hard to be the same person, but you are different.

This is the chapter of this particular character. Because to you, that's all I can be.

Reviews

[PhantomDancer]

You write about a subject that is very close to my experiences in life too. Your name has stirred memories too, because it was one who shared your name who had such a profound effect in my life.