Daily Routine

I've been battling with depression for a while now and there were times where I felt like giving up and cutting myself but now I express my feelings through poetry. (I wrote this poem when I was 13)

Finally a teen and I'm all set
But I never thought there's a day where I would be upset
Mums counting on me I'm dependable
But to my family I'm invisible
The pain that I'm in they don't understand
I feel like I'm falling and I'm not gonna land
I try to smile in the mirror but it kills
As I turn away and hide my pills
It's a new day I push my tears aside
But in my mind I still think of suicide
But as usual I'll say I'm fine
As this is the daily routine of mine
I walk into school here comes my depression
But I'm trying my best making a good impression
Everyone greets me they see me smiling
But truly inside I'm dying and crying
I come home where it should be great
But home is one of the places I really hate
Whenever I find peace war slaps me in the face
The tears mess up my image I look a disgrace
When all I want is to be free
Accept me or begone I want to be me