If You Could Kill Me Instead of the Demons I'd Be Happy

Much of my writings take inspiration from pop culture and many are 'in the style' of artists and songs. This was written with Glasvegas in mind and is essentially about going mad over 'love' and drugs

I idolize you

Like a one man teenage fan club

I want everything in this world

Except the tedium of being in love

In love with you

 

I wanted you

To be my new obsession

To aid my confusion and fall Into regression

I wanted you to be my brand new drug

My brand new addiction

 

Take comfort in the familiar

The familiar sound of loneliness that I know 

Footsteps and memories haunt me from afar

I try and I try to get back home

To that place I once remember

In my heart

 

When I got there at long last

I found that my memories were different

But the sounds of heartache were the same

After all this time

I don’t think I can walk this line

I don’t think I can change

 

There’s a scream in the night

The devil outside wants his rent

My taxes and my debt

Come in the form of my torment

I hand him my soul to let

To balance out the interest

 

Each morning I’m obsessed

And when the sun decides to set

Each night I’m possessed

Longing to be anaesthetized

To block out the thoughts of suicide

To cope with being alive

 

You and I don’t even exist

There won’t be a first kiss

There will only be a dying hope

A sailboat tied to shore by a rusty rope

I’m chained to this torture in the same way

Some call it depressing

Others say its obsession

I call it the demon in the mist

Of a perpetual winter

It’s where I live

Reviews

[Sami Khalil]

A feel some sadness in between, some longing and some remorse perhaps. Some of the lines are very beautiful. You have many reasons and talents.

[Tourist the Sleepwalker]

Thanks yes a lot of longing here. Was written with Scottish band Glasvegas in mind

[Sami Khalil]

You are mindfully welcome.