Life Goes On
No one ever said that life was easy, there will
always be someone, something that will make you cry, you just sit in the
corner and cries for hours but you just need to remember LIFE GOES ON
As
the magical time ticked around the mysterious wide clock, I just then
realize that I, slowly steps at the glamorous kingdom of high school.
Being a high school student is like a royal king or queen, which has a
high responsibility. At first, my life being a high school student seems
so happy and wonderful, as colorful as the rainbow, but suddenly a pile
of black clouds have come, the mystery of the darkness, the trials I
might face, the horror of the future have whispered in my ears. Then a
sudden revelation had awakened my mind, I had to face a very big
problem. A kind of illness, I have known, an illness that makes my
dreams all fall in just a snap. I have traveled into many places just
to be cured; along the way as time has passed two things have been in my
mind, such a curiosity have traveled into my mind, such a question I
had been thinking, what a mixed up emotion as I asked “Why me? Why me?
When there are lots of people who wished to be sick?! Why not them? I,
who have many dreams, want to reach, have this kind of illness?!” I
wondered that it seems to block the star I hoped to reach. A drop of
tear, tear of loneliness, the symbol of my broken heart. Then, I felt,
that I’m left all alone while the darkness has slowly swallowed my faith
and hope…..
I then remembered the sweet smile, the adorable
laughs and the friendly looks which brightens up my world which is full
of darkness and pain. Then I was surprised, because in just a glimpse, I
was awakened with a shocking disclosure. I had my first seizure; I was
so afraid that every drop of my tears fell down to my cheeks,
continuously felt like a thunder volt…..
I heard my mom cried,
shouting for help. Then those tears feels like a needle stuck in my
heart. It really breaks my heart. I can’t imagine seeing my mom with
tears from her eyes which is full of sorrow, hearing her with a voice
full of anxiousness. I felt her warm hug and that I know she was
frightened what shall happen next, but still struggling for me, give
more sacrifices just for me, and that I know I was so lucky that I have a
great mom like her, and I want to let the whole world know how lucky I
am and tell them how our mom sacrifices and love us even if we have
committed many mistakes to them. So love your mom and show her how you
appreciated her. I want you all to know that I love my mom and thankful
to have her. To the entire mom’s all around the world we are proud of
you. Especially to my mom, that, I love her
today and I will love her forever more…..
And the reality have
again disrupted my mind, recalling the last minute that I felt like a
thunder storm hit me, and now it again freaks me out. I remembered my
mom which is so afraid that she never stops crying that moment, then I
felt like an atomic bomb, knock me straight, down into the endless
sorrow, which there is no way I could escape from the darkness and
horror I’m into. I wanted to do something; I want to figure out things
make it right but…...
I’m like a wounded bird, helpless and
broken like a mirror. After that freaky night we immediately traveled
to Iligan(a name of place) and they put me to the ICU (Intensive Care Unit). I then
experienced some medical treatment and also the technology of hospitals.
Then after many adventurous months the doctor told me that there is a
high possibility that I could be cured because according to their
research and analysis I am still young so Insha’Allah my illness would
be gone. And after that big trial, I went back to school and accept the
challenge and ready to be in an escapade. I met new friends, great
teachers, and good classmates. My life being with them is working well,
but….
Another terrifying tragedy is ahead me, and when I heard
the news, I felt like, the heaven and the earth crash towards me and
cause a great disaster. Our cheerful home starts to be silent, the
silence made me tremble in fear, and again the past have hunted me, the
scary adventure have again took over me. I tried to escape but the
horror of the reality would catch me with flame. Another extremely
countless problem had come. As my mind flew around the dangerous
mountain of the unknown, I thought before, that everything is fine after
my recovery but I was wrong…
The horrifying unjust future has
again given me a great trial. I need to stop studying to be with my
helpless dad who suffered for almost 4 months because of colon cancer.
At first I find it hard to make decision whether I stay or leave my
dream which seems like throwing it like a trash. But my school is very
generous and kind that they have agreed to let me go to Saudi Arabia,
and gave me chance to study hard even if I am far from them, I am so
grateful that I could leave with a relief. Then, we went back to Saudi
Arabia and stay with my dad until his recovery, but the time has come he
is in a great danger that he looks like dying of pain, I can’t look at
him as he suffered that i can’t do anything to help him. As they rushed
my father to the hospital leaving me and, my sister and brother alone in
the house I felt like crying, I wept at the corner and secretly cried
and cried for hours. As I wept I didn’t realize that I have fallen
asleep. Then I was awakened with a loud cry, I saw my mom crying and
along her are my brother and sister. Then seeing them makes my sorrow
come to life again. Then I prayed to Allah for help. After 6 hours my
mom went back to the hospital to see my dad. Then…..
He called
at our telephone as I heard his voice I was so glad. And again my happy
heart flew fast into the sky and felt like so happy then as I look at
his cheerful smile, as my mind flew joyfully in the clouds, all the
darkness have vanished in just a wink of his smile. Sacrifice, love and
stay strong is what makes our family strong whatever the typhoon of the
future may gave us. In this journey of my life I learned that I might
fall but whatever happens I’ll stand up and reach my dreams and be
happy. In life there is always a time of sorrow, and joy so use your
magical time wisely and learn from your mistake as we travel along with
the mysterious wide clock. And now I am continuing my dreams in my
glamorous school and ready to face the unpredictable future….
A great story of my life..
-To Be Continued-
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