Man-Boy Love

Growing up as a little boy

I liked to look out the window and watch the sun rise in the morning

I liked to sit down and watch my sisters sing 80s hit music

I liked to watch them play mummy and daddy with their little dolls

 

There weren’t that many male role models growing up

Only females who criticized every aspect of male play

And an absentee father who showered us with gifts once on Christmas day

 

Oh I don’t blame him

God knows I don’t blame him

He was busy trying to fend a living to put a roof over our heads

He was busy trying to earn a living to put food on the table

 

Oh, I don’t blame him

God knows I don’t blame him

 

In those days it was alright for a man to have two families

It was alright for a man to dedicate his life to his work

Just as long as it put food on the table

It put a roof over his children’s heads

And it put them through school

 

Oh, but I don’t want to be that man

God knows I’d die before I became that sort of man

It’s just not my thing

 

But there are a few things a boy can do in a home

Like protect his mother

Like learn from his mother

Learn the nurturing and care giving skills that his mother gave him

Learn to love like his mother and cook like his mother

 

There are a few things I learnt from my mother

And those I will never forget

 

And she always told us the day that would make her most proud

Would be the day that my sisters would get married and bear her grand children

And her sons would marry and bring her grand children

The day that we would meet that special someone

Fall in love and live happily ever after

That’s the day that would make her proud

 

Amazing

How fast time goes by

Before we knew it they were all falling in love

And marrying rich handsome men

My sisters

Bearing children

And bringing her grandchildren

 

While I was the only one left standing by her side

Donno why

Perhaps because I thought no one could take her place

Perhaps because I was just happy enough being in the nest

Or perhaps because I simply hadn’t fallen in love yet

 

But no

I had

Many times

And it always yielded the same response

I wasn’t old enough

I wasn’t man enough

All the while I knew they would always look down on me

 

But then I met this special man

And he was like everything I always wanted to be

 

How I’d always dreamed I would

Drive a sports car like you do

And build a storied home like you do

 

How I’d always wished I would

Get the attention of all the girls when I stepped in to a room like you do

And have all the men keep silent when I got up to speak like you do

 

How I’d always wanted

To negotiate million dollar deals like you do

And make a lot of money like you do

 

How I’d always dreamed

To travel the world like you do

And take people to see the world like you always do

 

How I’d always wished I could be just like you

And work

And live

Just like you

 

And look

And walk

And talk

Just like you

 

How I’d always wished I could be a man like you

 

Sometimes all I want is to be embraced by you

And kissed by you

And loved by you

But may be sometimes I could just spend a few moments with you

Talk to you

Get to know you better

And may be even spend the night with you

 

Just may be

Sometimes

 

For even though you were older

You never once looked down on me

Even though you were smarter

You never once took me for a fool

You took me into your arms

And accepted me in your home

You fed me

And bred me

You shared with me

And bared with me

 

How could I forget

You taught me what it takes to be a man

To be responsible and be strong

To have faith and to have courage

To nurture and to forge

To be a caregiver and a hard worker

And most of all to love and to commit

 

How could I forget

You taught me what it takes to be a man

For you believed in my potential

 

Now I will not just sit down and watch

I will not just play your wife

I will not just clean and cook

 

I will also fend for you

And protect you

Just like you did me

 

I will also encourage you

And support you

Just like you did me

 

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