100% Straight

I used to have a girlfriend

She was such a pretty face

Once, we were into each other

I thought we were in love

Or at least I knew I was

 

But did she know what she wanted?

I doubt it

 

Sometimes she wanted to cuddle

Sometimes it was too much

 

Sometimes she wanted money

Sometimes she said money wasn’t everything

 

Sometimes she wanted attention

Sometimes she called me overly possessive

 

Sometimes she wanted wealth

Sometimes she said I spent too many late nights working

 

Sometimes she wanted a romantic dinner

Sometimes all she wanted to do was party

 

Sometimes she wanted me to tell her how pretty she was

Sometimes she called it ogling

 

Sometimes she wanted to be in a relationship

Sometimes she wanted to be just friends

 

Sometimes she wanted us to be together

Sometimes she wanted to take a break

 

Sometimes she wanted to be with me

Other times all she wanted was to be with her girlfriends

 

For she told them things she never dared tell me

Whatever happened to never keeping secrets between us?

 

Did she even know what she wanted?

I doubt it

 

Sometimes she’d just tell me to go back home and think about it

For when I figured it out

I would go get it

Bring it to her

And that would be so romantic

 

But I was no genius

Sometimes I brought her the wrong thing

Sometimes I messed up the wrong way

 

She never failed to criticize my mischief

She never failed to point out my mistakes

All the while I knew I could never be good enough for her

 

Did she even know what she wanted?

I doubt it

 

So I turned to my long time friend

For with him I could never go wrong

For with him I could never make a mistake

Having been dumped, just as I was

For then I could feel a little less lonely

 

So we went to same restaurants

But just as friends

 

We went to same hangouts

But just as buddies

 

For we were straight

Always straight

Perfectly straight

100% straight

 

 

But we were also lonely

We needed company

 

We were half empty

We needed to be filled

 

We were weak

We needed to be strengthened

 

Separate tables we ate

Separate homes we lived

 

So we moved in together

But just as friends

 

So we settled in together

But just as roomies

 

Separate bedrooms we shared

Separate nights we shared

 

For we were straight

Always straight

Perfectly straight

100% straight

 

For we weren’t into men

We were into each other

 

But now we ate at same tables

We stayed in same homes

We played at same clubs

 

Sometimes we stayed up late playing cards

Other times we stayed up late cracking jokes

While other times we stayed up late working on projects

 

But we were also tired

We were also overworked

And we were also lonely

 

We were cold

We needed to be warmed

 

So we shared same beds

What difference would it make?

Who would know that it happened?

 

Comforted by the warmth of each other’s bodies

But just as friends

 

But when it came to doing what we do to get each other off

How could we be afraid of each other now!

How could we feel awkward with each other now!

For we knew each other inside out

 

So we lent each other a hand

For now we didn’t have to be alone anymore

 

So we touched

We kissed

We hugged

We cuddled

 

But not just as friends anymore

We were lovers

Boyfriends

Eternal soul mates

 

Yes, I used to have a girlfriend

But now I have a boyfriend

 

And he tells me he loves me everyday

He tells me he wants me everyday

He puts his heart on the line for me everyday

 

Now I have a boyfriend

And we even cook for each other

Funny, we never did that when we were together

 

Now I have a boyfriend

And we even wash each other

We never did that when we were together

I wonder why

 

Now I have a boyfriend

And we even kiss

We never did that when we were together

I wonder why

 

Now I have a boyfriend

And we even touch

We never did that when we were together

I wonder why

 

Yes, I used to have a girlfriend

And now she calls

Wanting us to be together again

 

She saw me earlier

With my boy

Finally happy

She likes what I’ve become

 

And now she says I should just get rid of him

And bring her back into my life

For she loves what I’ve become

 

You thought you deserved the best

Because you were so pretty

Because you were so perfect

 

Well perfection isn’t what I’m looking for

For that wouldn’t keep me warm at night

 

Now I have a boyfriend

And he tells me he loves me everyday

 

Now I have a soul mate

And he tells me he wants me everyday

 

Now I have a partner

And he puts his heart on the line for me everyday

 

You deserve somebody who loves you

Somebody who cares for you

Someone who understands your needs

You deserve somebody better than me

 

I could never be that person

For I could never be good enough for you

 

Would I kiss your a*s for being a lady

Yes I would

 

Would I take care of you for being pretty

Yes I would

 

Would I buy you gifts for being a good girl

Yes I would

 

Does that mean I’d respect you for being a great friend

Yes it does

 

Does that mean I want to date you?

No

 

But does that mean I want to sleep with you?

No it doesn’t

 

Does that mean I want to marry you?

Does that mean I want to spend the rest of my life with you?

I didn’t say that

 

Find somebody perfect

Someone who understands your needs

A man

But if not, then a woman

 

Sorry, but that person isn’t me.

 

I could never be with someone that resents me the way my mother resented my father

 

I’m with a man now

And he tells me he loves me everyday

 

I’m with a man now

And he tells me he wants to be with me everyday

 

Oh, I used to have a girlfriend

And all she talked about was getting hitched

 

But now all I have is a boyfriend

And lots of girls who are friends

 

Reviews

[Frank F. Atanacio]

I think I read this three times in the passed fifteen minutes.. Wow

[Erotic Goddess]

Now I have a partner
And he puts his heart on the line for me everyday

This whole poem says so much and I think the repetition makes it powerful. :) I really enjoyed reading this.

xxoxx
EG

[Tenten]

beautiful, i think people spends life times waiting for what you described. you have heart inside this, steadily beating. the repeating lines are wonderful, they keep the mind on how this piece starts all the way to where you're leading the end. brilliant.
it has me envious, just this beauty and flow. congrats.

[Matthew Breeden]

Wow.... Just... Wow... I totally expected one thing, and came out with something different. Very deep and moving. Any love, as long as it's true, should be followed. I'm glad you followed your heart, not too many people will throw away their shroud of uncertainty and take the risk that love is. After all, anything that involves your heart, soul, and being, is risky business.

-Dekay

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love in any form is beautiful... your parents...your pets..your kids..your partners... every bond you share is love.. the society may stereotype love as a guy and a girl holding hands..but sadly they fail to realise..love is about the unison of souls..which aren't bound by the girl-guy tags..they are just souls...
choosing a path that gives you happiness is what they do..and is what was preached by the gods...

a wonderful write...

wishing you tons of happiness....

take care..
niki :)