Ridding myself of booksA Story by Ronald AyersTrying to decide which book to throw away out of your library is a difficult task.By Ronald Ayers With all the electronic, and computerized devices about like
smartphones, Kindles, ipads, and ebook readers that people are using to read
these days, why does anyone need an old fashioned paper and ink book? This past weekend, I purchased a
Kindle. A nifty little device the
Kindle. It’s amazing all of the ebooks one can download onto the device. My
first selection was “The Habits of Highly
Effective People.” By Stephen Covey. In an effort to fully enter the modern age of reading, I’ve
embarked upon a campaign to rid myself of all of my hardback and paperback
books. I went into my home library this past Saturday determined to toss out
all vestiges of Johannes Gutenberg’s accomplishments. My book ridding campaign was a complete
failure. I discovered that nothing is more
difficult for me than throwing out a book. I couldn’t even bring myself to
throw away a terrible book such as my paperback edition Adolph Hitler’s Mein Kamph. Horrible little paper hanger that
Hitler. Spouting off about Lebensraum (Living Space), and killing people to
obtain it. As I see it, at about age forty, each of us should begin to
throw away the books of our youth. We should probably throw away a book for
each new book we acquire. That way your home library won’t be like mine---
filled from floor to ceiling with hardback nonfiction books, and paperback
novels that you started reading when you were age twelve. If you’ve read and liked a book and
taken a little of it into your life, you should keep it forever. I would never part with my hardback
copy of Henry Miller’s “Tropic of
Capricorn.” This was one of the first erotic novels I ever read. I still
get horny as I look at the book on my self. Miller lists the women he has bedded: a “simpleton”
who lives upstairs in his coworker Hymie’s place; Veronica, with her “talking
c**t”; Evelyn, with her “laughing c**t.” Finally he lavishes dozens of pages on a nameless woman
with whom he had an intense sexual relationship, a “plunder-bird” lady who
wears only black and no underwear. She and Miller go to sleep at dawn and get
up at dusk. They make love constantly. In between this running narrative of
various women and sexual encounters, Miller describes two writers who
profoundly marked him at this time in his life, when he was still developing as
a reader and a writer: Fyodor Dostoevsky and Henri Bergson. Whew! Great stuff! Intellectual eroticism is what the
world needs more of! No. “Tropic of
Capricorn” stays. It dosen’t take up much room. It has an attractive dust
cover, and it provides evidence to vistors that I am literate and have an
active libido. The
books I threw away, were the books that were junk books from the start. Books I
acquired that were good at the time but which have no lasting value. This would
include a novel like Jame Baldwin’s Giovanni’s
Room. Giovanni's Room is James Baldwin's second novel, first published in
1956. The book focuses on the events in the life of an American man living in
Paris and his feelings and frustrations with his relationships with other men
in his life, particularly an Italian bartender named Giovanni whom he meets at
a Parisian gay bar. Giovanni’s Room is
noteworth for bringing complex representations of homosexuality to a reading
public with empathy, artistry, and thereby fostering a broader public discourse
of issues regarding same-sex desire. I
didn’t grasp the nuances of same sex desire when I read Giovanni’s Room back in the
sixties, shortly after I finished reading Tropic
Of Capricorn. Giovanni goes in
the garbage. Notice. I’m better than Adolph Hitler and his Nazi crowd, so I
won’t be burning Jame Baldwin’s book. As you can see, I ran into some real
serious problems when it got right down to ridding myself of books. I have some
big expensive, arty picture books like The
Roman World by Tim Cornell and John Matthews. I love Roman history, but
I”ve only looked at the book once. It’s oversized, and dosen’t fit neatly on my
bookshelves. Even so, I can’t bring myself to ditch the darn thing, especially
because I know no one else wants it. I have volumes of old books, gilt-edged, some bound in
leather. These books look good on my shelf. Honestly I’ve never read the
collected works of Charles Dickens. I’d like to, but I’ve never gotten around
to it. The collection was given to me by the only white woman I’ve ever made
love to. A young French student named Janice Sires. She’d come by my apartment
late at night. I’d read passages of Henry Miller to her, and she’d read
passages from the erotic novels of Anais Nin to me. In between passages
we’d----we’d-----but that’s another story. I did wind up throwing a few books
away, but only a few. Two actually. If you decide to rid yourself of some
of your books, I’ve devised a set of rules you might want to follow. Throw out: ·
Books of advice on how to make money, lose weight or have
a happy marriage. ·
Any books whose jacket says it’s “a torrid romance.” ·
Any novel whose title brings to your mind no memor whatsoever of plot or character. Finally, what I like most about books
is something the Kindle just dosen’t have. The smell of ink and paper. There is something truly erotic in
that. -30-
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Added on November 17, 2012 Last Updated on November 17, 2012 Tags: Books, Kindle, Reading, Smartphone AuthorRonald AyersBlue Island, ILAboutBorn January 3, 1948. Author: Case Of The Deadly Triangle, a mystery novel published by Holloway House, 1975. Author and publisher of the: Leonard Robinson Mystery Magazine. Publisher and editor of Ae.. more..Writing
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