So I succumb

I should be able to do this
I should be strong enough not to break
It's expected that I will succeed
But I feel the cracks deepening
Each time I reach the edge
I linger and I sway
And then pull myself back
Because I am what must remain
I must carry the weight
So that they do not
It's always been me
And it will always be me
I stumble but they do not know
I fall but they do not see
I'm a better liar than a person
And this is what protects me
I am weak and I am tired
I am scared and I am angry
I am wary and I am despondent
But I am not transparent
I hide myself from them
So all they see is what I am not
What I pretend to be
And that is what protects them
I am eroding
I am a slow disintegration
Waiting to cease to be
And it will be by my own hand
The edge will be my comfort
And I will no longer lie
I will shed the weight of my world
And they will be okay
Maybe someday it will be safe
To think of me
And remember that I was once strong
And all my lies will become the truth
Of my memory

Reviews

[Abigail Latoreno]

Simply inspiring. Our facades are always a means to protect the fragile side of us but alas, we are merely human and it is so tiresome to keep it up. And it is such sweet freedom to finally be able to break our walls and show them that even the strongest persons have their weaknesses. I really love this poem.

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Thank you for reading. It is human nature to deny weakness. But eventually we have to succumb and admit that we can't always be strong. I appreciate the time you took to review

[Abigail Latoreno]

No problem. I'm glad to give credit when credit is due.

[BlackPrince]

'I am a slow disintegration'.
That lines really sums up the core theme of your poem.
This poem resonates with many of us.