Last AIr

And breath.

Standing at best
And at most

 

The places we've been

 

I feel
This world holding me
Grasping my throat
And taking hold

 

As each
Breath feels its pain
Each gasp is in vain

I'm dying for air.

 

But in the words
That I've heard before
That I repeat now
Nothing is for sure

 

I don't want to believe you are guided

 

Misleading my place in your step

 

If this world had an end
One we could choose
Would we be right here
With nothing to lose?

 

And in my last breaths, I believe you
Every word that you have said
With fires breaking my air, I believe you
So long as you live past my death.

 

When AIR!
AND COMPETANCE LEAVES!
WHEN WE ARE DOWN ON OUR KNEES!

 

WITH PRAYER!
WE SEEK OUR FORGIVENESS!
THE DAMNED SEEK TO BE HEALED!

 

THE COWARDS CRY FOR THEIR SPARING,
AND RELIGIOUS THOUGHTS FILL OUR HEADS!

 

As long as happiness finds you
I'll be content with my death

 

I BEG!
FOR FORGIVENESS FROM NO ONE!
I LIVED IT ALL WITH NO REGRETS!

 

JUST ONE!
ONE MINUTE WITH YOU,
WAS WORTH ANY DEBT!

 

AND JUST ONE!
ONE NIGHT HERE WITH YOU,
WAS WORTH A THOUSAND CRUEL DEATHS!

 

SO TAKE HEART
AND JUST WALK AWAY!
DON'T WAIT THIS LAST TIME!

 

I SMILE!
AS AIR LEAVES MY THROAT
YOUR FACE FILLS MY MIND

 

...One last time

 

Don't hold against me
The choices I've made.
I don't hold them upon myself.

 

And don't you dare
Believe its your fault
You'll find someone else.

If I,
Could do it again
If I could have led it twice

 

I know,
I would not change
I'd still save your life.

 

WITH ARMS
REACHING FOR AIR

 

WITH LUNGS
ABOUT TO COLLAPSE

 

Dont you dare
Think I'm sorry

Or that This choice
Wasn't quite fair

 

For me this was easy
Well worth it

 

The cost of you couldn't compare.

 

SO in this last breath
I believe you
Close your eyes and walk away

 

This fire
Has wrapped itself in me
And I think its better this way.

 

I loved you
The moment I saw you
The moment I held you all night

 

I loved you
The moment I saved you
And the moment I traded my life

 

Don't you regret this decision
And don't you feel bad about this

 

This is the world that we live in
And now its the rest of your life

Reviews

[Tai Chi Italy Take Two]

Almost reads like a suicide note Rj! Someone once told me never to regret the things I did do, just the things I didn't. And I have spent far to foooking long 'didn't doing'. Like my son told me today, I must live my life whilst I still have it. This poem was quite painful to read, as it reminded me of my longing, and I suppose many will be able to relate to its message. Being seperated feels like the breath being taken from us. Well it does for me anyway.

The final few lines make me think that the narrator suspects he has a hand in the fate of his affairs, but believe me, we don't have any choice, and as to the rest of their life, all I can say is, what life?

Smiling at you

Tai