Dream Big But Alone !!

This is absolutely my personal thought.

I have always been a dreamer, dreamer to the core. Piscean as I am. And trust me I always dream big. At a very young age I dreamt of being a model and actor. I wasn’t very tall and hence mum used to take me to the park everyday and make me hang on elevated horizontal bars. Then I became a pro at hanging and could hang on for several minutes at a stretch and move as well like monkeys do!! I was secretly grooming myself for the beauty pageants and even working on my acting skills. Secretly, because my father never approved of such things. Mum however, strangely felt that I could win any beauty pageant, including the most coveted Miss India title. Mother as she is. A few years down the line, I now dreamt of becoming a singer. Bollywood ishtyle. My training started under the tutelage of Pandit subhas Chaklader and many other gurus. Mum was positive this time too and thought I could win any of the challenge shows, only if I had participated. Days passed, and then years and I enrolled myself in law after completing my graduation.  This time I was not convinced of being called a Lawyer for I had already had my dream of being a Judge. Entry level, then High Court, then Supreme Court... Mum had already started conceptualising my life as a Judge. And this time she had the company of Dad as well. Six years later now when I sit and write this, I am a homemaker. I cook, clean, take care of my family..Though I have not stopped dreaming, my Mum is certainly exhausted and though she won’t agree, needs to just think about herself a little.

All you Mothers, I know its in your flesh and blood to love, care, worry, rebuke and then silenty cry, ignore your pains, sacrifice your happiness, your needs to fulfil the needs of your family, but please, please do not lose yourself completely for the sake of others. Even if it is for your children. Hold on to yourself before you suddenly realize one day that you have reached the point of extinction and all these years that you too were chasing some stupid dream of your child thereby sacrificing a part of yours, has yielded nothing but futility. I cannot replace my Mum’s lost years  but I can certainly give her some peace and happiness provided I don’t share any of my recent dreams with Her !!!