My patient lover

well its about my love affair with the end and my most patient lover...death

From the first breaths I took you were there

Courting me embracing me

From time to time you made your self known to me

From the first complications with my breathing and turning blue

To the violence all around me for many years

You held me in your loving arms

Caressing my forehead to rocking me asleep each night

I felt your strong pull the day I ran into the car

Drawing me closer to your love

And then being pulled from you by the drs

You nurtured my love for you even more

After being raped and beaten

Only growing stronger upon the fringes of my life

Watching me always being there seducing me with all your regalia

Always showing your magnificent beauty at times hardest in my life

I felt your securing embrace as I watched my friend dying

Holding me letting me know he was going to a better place away from this violence

You were there when my daughter was born encouraging my daughter her mother and me

Giving them both the unconditional love you have blessed me with all these years

You came in full of life when I was acting out in my addiction

Letting me know you would never leave me

Letting me know you were always my love and redemption

Soothing my pain and hatred toward life

We danced the forbidden dance in 98

But ending with me hospitalized and begging for you embrace once more

And now years later you have come back into my life as I write

With your hands upon my shoulder letting me know its ok to come to you

How I long for your love and your peace from this chaos

I know that we can only make love once

But it will be an orgasmic cosmic event

When finally, we would be true lovers of all

I can’t wait to feel you encompass me in your loving arms one last time

And to feel the beating of your purpose

As I lay in my bed I call for you and my family

You wait for others to say their mournful goodbyes

I reassure them you will take care of me in the last moments

It will be peaceful as I stare into your eyes and your heart

Then you kiss me and tell me to close my tired eyes

And telling me to rest for the last time

Then we make love as no other time in my life

I am now one with you and you with me

Death you have been the best lover

I have forever longed for you

I thank you for your reminders and love through out my life

For your touch your dance has made enjoy my life even more

Knowing you were right there with me

Enjoying my danger and embracing my fears

You loved me no matter what I did

Because you are patient

And you always get your lover

For no one can not escape your loving