When I Realized

When I Realized

 

It sounds like the story of yesterday morning,

Birds were singing the rising song,

And I, I was still dreaming,

Everything was fine,

Till, till I realized a new truth of life,

I went to the mirror to look into my eyes,

But what I saw was not me but few shadows,

Shadows of people I loved in life,

Everything was coming back to me,

From the moment I left my home to the moment I fell in love,

It sounds amazingly beautiful,

But with every moment I was losing a part of me,

Every shadow was looking at me with tears in its eyes,

And all I was saying, somebody please hold me tight.

 

Shadows took some shape and I saw my mother hugging me,

It was the day when I left my home,

And my mother standing there asking when are you coming home,

I cried remembering the time when I said I don’t care for you people,

I smiled remembering the moment when she slapped me,

I felt amazed when I saw her taking care of me,

The last day, the last bye, her every tear on phone,

Everything came by my eyes, and I said I miss you mom,

But the truth is, it’s hard to go back to the moments I missed.

 

Then few roses came up and I heard a girl calling my name,

It was she standing there looking at me,

It was of the day I fell in love,

Every picture of her came into my eyes and I smiled,

The moment I first touched her, the moment I first held her,

My first tear of good bye, my first hug when she came by surprise,

That looks of her eyes when she was still teasing me,

The touch of her lips when she was still eating something,

Writing those poems when I missed her,

Every dream which I created to see her,

I was smiling till I realized,

Realized that she is no more with me,

A tear came and her shadow left me.

 

As every face began to disappear,

I tried to fight, tried to catch the shadows,

Shadows of people I have left with time,

Those fights with friends,

Those phone calls at night,

The moments I spent telling her how beautiful would be our life,

The people who trusted me to win for them,

My father with his love, my brothers with their pranks, mother with her smile,

Everything was looking at me, and I was just standing, standing with my eyes closed.

 

But in between those shadows,

There was I, standing all alone,

Looking at myself, questioning my own soul,

I have come a long way I realized;

A long way to look back at the shadows of life,

Life seems amazing, but birds have stopped singing the songs,

And there is no one to tell me where I belong,

It seems hard to wish back everything that I have lost,

But may be I have realized,

Life is beautiful only when there is someone to sing the Life Song.

 

RAJ

Reviews

[Naina]

So finally Raj you are back.. or I should say back with a bang.. lol.. Very nice one.... Its heart touching.. I feel connected to it... I had also lost many things in my life and when i look back I'm just left with tears and guilt.. Infact this life is worst den hell for me n I'm seriously not interested in living it.... But I can't change it, I have to live it willingly or unwillingly.... Thats what I want to advice everyone.. You just can't change your past but please don't spoil your future.. N if we talk about the parents, its never too late to talk to them or go back to them... Though everyone is not that lucky but still everyone is not that unlucky also.... Keep smiling...:)

[raj24]

It took me a long time I guess to say thank you and I am really sorry for my mistake. I am really glad you liked my work and like always you are inspiring to me. Thanks Naina :)

Raj

[Naina]

Pleasure is mine :). Keep posting good work!

[raj24]

Same here Naina.

[~*~Peace Keeper~*~]

I like how you showed the memories in this piece, it is hard to say goodbye and when those memories come it is harder still. I too sometimes look back and wish things didn't turn out the way they did or to go back and enjoy the moments more, but life keeps moving forward. This is a bittersweet poem, but remember you don't have to go on this life journey alone, God is willing and wanting to walk there beside you and to fill the emptiness within.

Good Job

[raj24]

You are right, God is always around to guide us through. I am glad you liked it and sorry for such a late thanks. I hope you will forgive me for that. Thanks again :)

Raj

[~*~Peace Keeper~*~]

No problem and you're welcome :)

[Dipanjan Dutta]

Amazingly brilliant piece of writing. A superb expression of everything that gradually, at some point of time, starts fading away from life. Or may be that we just let them fade away for we have to move on. Yet what remains is faith and probably a looking back at the lost part of life when either it is too late to wish them back or we just can't get them anymore.

Pleasure to read this Raj. Great.

- Dipanjan

[raj24]

Thanks Dipanjan for reading and please forgive me replying you so late, was not here for real long time. Its wonderful to know you liked it. Thanks again :)

Raj

[Sophy Freebirds]

Its a autobiographical piece from what i gather. But dear poet i know how hard it is to walk alone. Fighting your demons on your own. Yes even shadows leave us alone in the dark.. parents siblings friends lover they are just a part in our journey of life. In our life the only thing which stays with us always is only us and our faith. Realization in life is the hardest of.things..we are alone in this world. We belong to ourselves. No one can possess us. We are wild and free as the wind. Eventually you will learn to sing the lifesong on your own :) take heart it is just the beginning of finding yourself.

~ Sophy

[raj24]

I agree with you tigress, I am learning to find myself and above all its the journey not the end :) Thanks again for being so supportive always and I am really sorry for being so late in saying so.

Raj

[Ashira Macy]

Hey Raj! I am so glad to see a new piece from you, and such a wonderfully written one at that! This was so sad, as remembering those you let go often is. If only we could catch those shadows and tie them to us like Peter Pan did with his, then we could keep them forever. Sadly, the only thing we can do to keep the shadows alive is to remember them as best we can, lest they slip entirely from our memory.

[raj24]

Hey Ashira, I am really glad you liked it and I hope you are doing great in your life these days. I am sorry again for missing your wonderful words but I am really glad you liked it. Its always a great feeling to hear from you . Thanks again for reading, Keep writing :)

Raj

[Avanthika]

Amazingly written , as usual your thoughts are eye-opening. May be could do some rewrite with the three lines - Shadows took some shape and I saw my mother hugging me,(shadows took some shape, you could make a bit change in it) And my mother standing there asking when are you coming home,(could reduce the length of the sentence) It was she standing there looking at me,(could make it better). all in all great

[raj24]

Thanks Avanthika for such amazing feedback, I will certainly look into the changes you have suggested. Although its been long three years but still a big thank you for reading it and reviewing it.

Raj

[Sindu]

Great read! touching piece, it's great how each memory is replayed. they may be painful but the journey what makes us and something to look foward to.

[raj24]

Well that's how life journey's are, we keep on moving and learning from them Thanks Sindu for reading it and giving your feedback. I am really late in saying so, but thanks again :)

Raj

[hardeep sabharwal]

A nice and emotional piece here, I felt I m in a journey while reading this poem,, a good work here raj

[raj24]

Thanks Hardeep for such wonderful words, I am sorry for late reply, but I am glad to know you liked it :)

Raj