Tears

Its the story of a mother who lost her kid...i just tried to wrote the state of her mind..

TEARS

 

Those tiny droplets of eyes never held any special meaning to my life,

I always thought they cry because they want to feel the pain we feel in our lives.

 

Passing through the crowds seeing someone cry,

I always stood there to know the reasons behind those howling eyes.

 

That’s how I met that lady on a drizzling night,

She was crying holding a child tight to her life.

 

That was her son, lying dead in front of me; I paused for a moment recaptured my soul,

Thought of helping her but her tears put me on hold.

 

I asked her why she is holding her pain, why is she not letting that tiny soul rest in peace,

She looked at me with many questions in her whimpering eyes,

How will you feel when your only son dies and you don’t want to let him go for the last time.

He was my heart and soul, a beautiful dream that I was nurturing for long,

He died last night leaving tears with my eyes and soul.

I am not crying because he died, I am not crying because he left me for the lifetime,

I am crying because I don’t know who will take care of him after that night.

 

I have heard of second life; tell me will my son get to live that another life,

Who will feed him there, who will wipe his tears?

Will, he gets to live a life that’s beautiful than the pains that he faced here,

Will he remember me there, will he remember how much I cared,

I have fears in my heart that are hard to hide,

My son has died here and I really don’t know how to say his goodbye,

Should I wish him luck for another chance or should I pray to God not to give him another painful life?

 

My tears are not just for fear that I have; they also have few reasons for some smile,

People say we go to heaven when we die, to meet the angels of God’s paradise.

I always told him the beautiful stories of angels, that my mother told, 

I didn’t get to see them, but I always lived them,

See my son got his chance to live the stories that his mother always wanted to be a part of,

My son always asked me about those angels of his sweet dreams,

Now he has that princess, and no one can take her away from his arms.

 

This cloudburst is not meant to get my soul wet,

It’s God’s tears to say sorry for the mistake he has commit,

He knows he is at fault, he knows he has made two of us apart,

But I can’t say him anything, no I can’t, after all, he is God, The God,

He can play with people’s lives, with a mother’s heart and a child’s dreams,

I can’t curse him, but I also can’t forgive him,

With my every tear here, I am just praying he will take good care of him,

He will give him everything, which this life denied him.

 

You are a stranger for me, I see my God in you,

Can you feel my pain; can you see the soreness on my face,

With my every word to you, I am healing myself,

I am trying to put myself stronger so that my kid doesn’t feel my pain,

I can’t beg God to stop this rain, let it cover me, let it wash my kid before a new day,

My soul is bleeding in pain, but I have to smile here because my kid will never be in my arms again, will never be in my arms again.

 

With those words of her, my every question got its answer; my soul just felt it’s not there,

Her pain just left me shattered, I wanted to leave, but I found no place,

Tears do hold a meaning, a deep meaning, a meaning that’s attached to every soul,

Why I cried, maybe I felt her pain, but do I have the answers to her prayers,

No, sometimes even God doesn’t have every answer and enough words to explain.

 

 

 RAJ

Reviews

[Coyote Poetry]

You questions and you seek answered in the poem. I believe we must mourn.
"Why I cried, maybe I felt her pain, but do I have the answers to her prayers,
No, sometimes even God don’t have every answer and enough words to explain."
Easy to cry for the fallen, if you lost a child. Heavy pain upon the heart. Powerful words and thoughts shared my friend.
Coyote

[raj24]

Thanks for reviewing it, I am glad you liked it and your words certainly means a lot. We can be in someone's shoe but still can never feel what they feeling..Thanks again for reading it.

[Coyote Poetry]

A powerful poem and you are welcome my friend.

[Anahat]

This was so beautiful Raj...so heartfelt...
Got me tears...A lovely write...
Cheers!!
-Love Anahat :)

[raj24]

this is a story that i really really love and every time someone reads it...i really feel grateful to them...thanks Anahat...ur words really mean a lot..:)

[Anahat]

This is surely a beautiful story...
Pleasure's all mine :)

[Wall Hermitt]

“I am not crying because he died, I am not crying because he left me for the life time,
I am crying because I don’t know who will take care of him after this night.”

This was the part of the poem that captured my heart in the deepest of ways. You carve a very melancholic image/scenery that is bound to magnetize toward its profound words the readers’ sympathies and/or feelings of empathy. I like the progression of the poem. It’s like reading a sad story, except in this literary context a happy ending isn’t always conventional, as it deals with the reality of things, a reality where a satisfying ending is not an assured promise. This was tremendously heart-felt and immensely poetic. Had a very emotional read. Thanks for the share.

W.H.

[raj24]

Thanks Hermitt, i really liked this review, it really gave me clear picture of my own story from a readers point of view, the way you felt about it. i will work hard further :)

Raj

[Summer Rose]

This made me tear up, the kids in my daycare class asked me why I was tearing up. I can't wait to buy a published piece if work by you, I know one day it'll happen. You're an extraordinary writer.

[raj24]

i will surely try my best to live upto ur words, i just wrote this to share a mother and her kids relationship even at those last moments of life..thanks for liking it....:)

[priya]

so heartfelt Raj ..you are an amazing poet..please keep writing...
"But I can’t say him anything, no I can’t, after all he is God, The God,
He can play with people’s life, with a mother’s heart and a child’s dreams,
I can’t curse him, but I also can’t forgive him.."... these lines remind me of this video ..i dont know why..https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=AFCiMKdF_pE&list=PLC2F485C1F58681FC...

[raj24]

amazing..hmm..if u r saying so thn what to say..i m over d moon...thank u thank u...:)...
havnt checked d video yet.....but will surely check d video in sometime..but for now..i m feeling great to know that u liked this..:)