Broken Home

I've cried for you. 

I pray for you. 

Are you really worth all this? 

Said I'd die for you. 

I'd wait for you. 

My love is what i'd give. 

I've tried to stay awake for you 

But I fall back fast asleep

There is only so much one can do 

When you're only just thirteen

 

I tried to live my life,

I tried to go to school

Then I imagine you don't want me

And I choked on my own rules

I tried to just get by

Just to live another day

But then you scream into my face

I feel your spit caress my skin 

Like your arms would never f*****g do

I wonder why it got this way 

Why god would give me to you

Clearly you never deserved me 

Coming home drunk at 3 am 

While I already cooked dinner 

For my neglected kin 

I feel some sort of hopeless 

Then I'd kind of want to die

After panicing, 

You'd hit me 

And tell me how you regret my life 

I got by, by believing 

There could be others, 

Others who would want to be, 

others who want to mean as much, 

as you could mean to me. 

But what am i supposed to do, 

just everything you say?

I suppose then I would be a child 

Who ruins everything 

 

What was I supposed to do

when all you do is take? 

Were you ever interested in what I gave away?

I gave to you my comfort

My will to longer live 

I gave to you my purity, 

My childhood, innocence

I gave away my confidence

I no longer had support 

I walked along glass stairways 

Just to try to prove to you

I could have been the daughter 

That so many would be proud 

But now I sit in silence 

Because your words that hurt

Were way too loud.