My guilt

Feeling alone agian.

the streetlight coming in through my window.

shadows dancing across my wall.

darkness falling faster than i can think.

fear carresing my cheek.

my breath catching in my throat.

trying to scream out.

but cant even speak.

as i lay there i begin to wonder.

was it my fault?

every time i close my eyes.

the bruises, the screaming, the begging,

starts to begin again..

if i had said a word,

if i had told one soul,

if i had broken a promise and risked everything we had...

she would still be here with me,

helping me through everthing..

like she use to...

before i let her die.