Saturnism

 You're like an addiction

An affliction

Racing through my veins

A chemical imbalance 

Wreaking havoc in my head

You're like lead

Building up slowly

As you spread

And I'd vaccinate 

But you'd just mutate

And I'm utterly susceptible

To post-injection dread.

 

I blame you when I come back for more.

Tell myself, surely,

This time I'm done for sure.

Hope is gone,

I can't go on-

But to give up is to die,

And I only have to speak to you

To know that I'm alive.

 

You call me like a siren song

Push me away, pull me along,

And I'm spread out under unfamiliar stars

Fighting the waves

Not knowing where you are

But you keep me going on.

No matter how you move me,

You keep me strong.