Temptation

Just in a bit of a slump right now. Figured I'd write a little to ease my head.

Nightmares, memories, pain, and torture.

This pain I feel is real.

Haunting thoughts, Chilling past.

A smile keeps this concealed.

 

Panic, sadness, anger, and sorrow.

When will this coaster end?

There’s a needing to be bleeding.

And my brain needs time to mend.

 

This endless charade,

A beautiful masquerade!

How long can I stay sane,

When all I feel is pain?

 

Sometimes life takes over.

Puts you in the passenger’s seat.

Can’t control what you used to,

Feeling nothing but defeat.

 

Then, sweet temptation calls out,

“Lose yourself to me!

Once my hooks are back in you,

You’ll never again be free!”

 

The strangest part is,

Temptation seems so inviting.

Sometimes I sit and ask myself,

Is it really worth fighting?

 

“Of course it is you selfish s**t”

My ego will exclaim

“If you relapse, it’s your fault.

You have no one else to blame”

 

So the war in my head

Will continue to rage on

When will I make a decision?

Once temptation is gone.