I understand this completely... Too well actually. Though I have to say I hate myself sometimes for the things I have done, mostly about men, I have to say sometimes people don't understand how hard it is to leave someone, no matter how bad they treat you. If you are truly in love with someone you can't just walk away because they hit you or cheated on you... It's hard... And it makes you feel so stupid, but you just can't help it. This poem, I feel, explains this in a way. But besides that opinion I have to say this is a very nice piece.
I really loved this poem! Your choice of words were spot on, and the way you crafted the emotion into this piece was really stunning. The tension, struggle, and desperation that you expressed was like an exaggerated version of what we all go through during our lifetime, and I thought that you summed all of this up perfectly in the last few lines. However, my favourite section of the poem was probably the first 5 or so lines. Beautifully done! :)
~PaperHearts
W-O-W just like those girls that run back to their boyfriends after they treated them like garbage. And the memories coming back of what their boyfriend did to them before but they're telling themselves that he cares about them and won't do the bad things again. BULLPOOP, once an a*****e always an a*****e...yes I'm bitter about boys atm. Just the feeling of being in the moment and being shot down by the one person whom you care so much about and have so many feelings for and respect and adore and can't get out of your head, for him to just treat you like you're nothing and can be thrown away but picked back up again is like having your heart run over by a steamroller on broken glass on gritty concrete. Your poems bring out an interesting character in me...thanks for the variety in my life :) Good work, as always :D