HopeA Poem by Rachael RainbowA story of surviving depression and anxiety, as well as cutting.I used to fly I flapped my wings Soared through the sapphire sky Not afraid, not scared Weightless But I flew on paper wings Paper wings that broke and crumpled I flew too high My wings were torched in the light I fell to the earth Trying to hang on to things Slipping through my fingers, Desperately trying to cling on But still slipping, Still falling. The world slipped past my eyes All I could see was the blackness of despair Despair that cased itself around me A leaden vault, Encasing me in its dreadful fall. I hit the ground, Rocks scratching my body, Trapped at the bottom of an endless hole. There was sun at the top, A long way away Impossibly far, Light years away. I sat at the bottom of that hole Sat there for years, Making no effort to climb up. It seemed so hopeless Why should I even try? The rocks dug into the palms of my hands, The soft skin of my wrists And I liked the pain I began to worship it. It was my savior Jesus couldn’t begin to compete. The pain was all I could think of My love, my life, my only hope. Then a voice, from the world above, A face, the first to look at me. You convinced me to climb. It’s been a hard climb. You are still the voice Coaxing me to climb to you To the world I have so long been absent from I can see it now Just beyond my reach Children laugh and people hug Music and sunshine fills the air You take my hand Together we can make this climb Perilous as it has been Perilous as it will be I will be free. Someday I will walk in the sun again I may never fly again The weight on my shoulders is far too great But I will walk in the sun I will feel the light on my face The warmth of another human’s arms. Someday I will have hope again. © 2011 Rachael Rainbow |
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Added on July 14, 2011 Last Updated on July 14, 2011 AuthorRachael RainbowStafford, VAAboutHey, I'm Rachael. :) I love to write and play music. That's pretty much it. I want to be an elementary music teacher, maybe have a few novels too. I'm bi, and I am VERY passionate about gay rights. more..Writing
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