Shoes Fit All If You Just Believe

Step into my shoes and you'll know that
short time makes me worry
and thunderstorms at midnight make my heart quake
until it's cracking my rib cage.
My thoughts taunt me,
my past haunts me
and my future is blurry.

My dad left a dent in the center of my heart
reminding me that no man is trustworthy.
My mother proves that pills don't fix your head.
A boy let a disease through my bones,
then left, only to return as a friend.
I cut up pictures of her,
setting them on fire like she did to me.

The ocean is in my lungs
pressing out each teaspoon of air.
Clouds are in my head
blocking out the sun when I need it most.
Rain is the arms I never had
when I fell to my knees 3 years ago.
And stones keep me safe
from the words that slip from his mouth.

Hope can be found in tiny cracks in my bones.
Love is pushed away by the guards around my heart.
Family is alcohol, cigarettes, drugs and yells.
And death is a reminder that everything,
even forever,

ends.