Fly

I saw a bird today.

It was a bird struggling to fly

And not too long ago I was that bird

That same bird stuck in a gust of wind

Unable to take full control of myself

Unable to rip away from the current

Being thrown in different directions

Not even sure which way was up or down, right or left

Yet I didn't even care.

It was almost as if I was trapped in space

Time wasn't moving

OR maybe it was moving, just faster than I

And then there was this emotion

Somewhat of a hatred inside, building slowly

Why?

Sitting here and thinking about it...I can't recall a reason...

I just remember my blood fueled with anger.

Angry at the world?

At God?

The universe?

Perhaps myself...

Then I met you.

Life started moving again

Pulsing with this energy I can barely come to understand

Rushing through me, feelings I didn't think were possible

What was it?

I couldn't even begin to describe it

Yes, I had the same old life, the same old schedule

But you were there.

And you are there.

You are here.

Even if not physically,

You are here.

In my mind, with every thought.

In my heart, with every beat.

In my soul and changed existence.

Every beautiful day I wake to is a reminder of you

I'm trying so hard.

So hard to think of ways to say it aloud

The easiest way is of course those three words

But I don't want it to be easy

Which is why I don't say them too often

As far as how I feel those words don't do any justice

What I will say is this-

Your mere presence has created a new light in my life

Pulling me from my own prison

You may not realize what you've done

But know that I am forever thankful

For this bird can now fly free.

Author's Note

A poem I wrote about a certain someone :)